i dont feel well today, at all. i dont know if its just my nerves or what but i feel really sick ( Read more... )

ive been feeling better.ive been telling myself its all ok. it lasted for a day.i dont know what it was but when i was at jays i just lost it and i tried so hard to keep it under control. i didnt want to move, i didnt want to talk, but i tried. when everything inside of me was just hurting so much and i was trying so hard to not start crying ( Read more... )

catch me as i fall ( Read more... )

the world is spinning. honestly i just want to plant my feet in the ground and make it stop. emotions are running so rapid through me. im filled with what ifs ( Read more... )

i didnt say any of the things i had planned to say ( Read more... )

stepping back into oblivion ( Read more... )

I went and saw kyle today. I havent seen him in 3 weeks.I walked in the door and connie was happy to see me. then kyle comes out of his room and looks up and sees me. he had a huge grin on his face, walked over and gave me a huge hug.we talked for awhile. told of the hellish two weeks ive been going through.he knew most of it already seeing as he ( Read more... )

"Avoiding your eyes now, and if I seem distant, it's because I've let you far behind. Fighting my intentions. I do this far too often. I'm running away. I'm on my way back to the only place I know is safe. Out of my car, back to the loneliest place on earth. This is not an excuse, it just has to end. This conversation gets us nowhere. That's all I' ( Read more... )

im starting to feel a tad bit better about things. i have hope ( Read more... )

yup i turned 22 today.