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Today was like..such a stressful day at work...ugh it was horrible..I actually cried in the yard(place where i have to stay with stupid dogs) First it was because I was stressed by the craziness of all the dogs and then it was because I just wanted to be held and I realized I didn't have David to look forward to anymore.
It's really hard to deal with stuff without friends... and it's like I don't want to go through the process of MAKING friends.... I want to already have them....know them...ya know what I mean?
I wish I had that... those people you can fall back on. Like I said before I really only have one...his name is Justin... He's GREAT...and I love him to death because he's just..so good to me. But I can only see him so much and I don't want to bother him with everything. Oh well. BTW I went to his new condo twice and it's totally AWESOME!!! I would be satisfied to live in one of those the rest of my life if I had to... He so deserves it!
I try to keep myself busy to try not to think about things, but it's miserably failing only because you can do just so much by yourself. I'm trying to get back into writing...that was so good for me, but I've gotten into this habit of keeping things in... I'm not really sure why.
I'm really stressing about the whole single thing...on one hand it's GREAT because I'm free and it's fun to look and have options, but on the other hand it's like...god that means I have to like...deal with the guy shit. The I like you do you like me...the what if I like two guys and can't decide..etcetc drama drama.
oh well.
I wish I were past this...like in the future.. I was like 25 and married and pregnant...and everythings goin good. I wish I could get to that...I want that so bad!
It's really hard to deal with stuff without friends... and it's like I don't want to go through the process of MAKING friends.... I want to already have them....know them...ya know what I mean?
I wish I had that... those people you can fall back on. Like I said before I really only have one...his name is Justin... He's GREAT...and I love him to death because he's just..so good to me. But I can only see him so much and I don't want to bother him with everything. Oh well. BTW I went to his new condo twice and it's totally AWESOME!!! I would be satisfied to live in one of those the rest of my life if I had to... He so deserves it!
I try to keep myself busy to try not to think about things, but it's miserably failing only because you can do just so much by yourself. I'm trying to get back into writing...that was so good for me, but I've gotten into this habit of keeping things in... I'm not really sure why.
I'm really stressing about the whole single thing...on one hand it's GREAT because I'm free and it's fun to look and have options, but on the other hand it's like...god that means I have to like...deal with the guy shit. The I like you do you like me...the what if I like two guys and can't decide..etcetc drama drama.
oh well.
I wish I were past this...like in the future.. I was like 25 and married and pregnant...and everythings goin good. I wish I could get to that...I want that so bad!