crushes/guys I like
You know It's really weird how my mind works. I don't get intense crushes very often. I can count them one hand the ones I've had in life. I mean crushes I've had a lot but the ones that feel so deep are ones that I've only had about 5.
The first one I remember was in high school it was with a really good friend of mine named Chris. I felt so electric, yet comfortable when I was around him. He was pretty shy, geeky, dorky, etc. But something about him appealed to me. I was the first chick he danced with I think. He was huggy with me, but not anyone else. But I didn't do a good job of feeling it out I think. I told him I liked him and it got weird and we lost touch.
Then there was Nathan in college. Don't know why I liked him so much. I mean he's a great guy, adorable for some reason. Perverted in an innocent kind of way. We were snuggly and liked a lot of the same things, and I told him that I liked him and he let it percolate for the summer and then we came back and he told me that he wouldn't be opposed to things happening. And left it at that, which is guyese for oooh yah. That's what I've been told since then. But I fucked it up because I got with Daniel. Damnit! I'm still kicking my ass for that one.
Now there's the guy at school. I feel the same way as the ones above. You look at him and wouldn't initally see the appeal, but something is there that makes him irresitable to me. I think it's the personality, intellegence and humor. I'm a sucker for a smart guy. I swoon in their smartness, and funny to boot! I mean those of you that know me know that my sense of humor is strange, but here's a guy that jokes with me about God getting drunk and making a deal with the devil! And us being God's pets! Perfection. But there's the thing that he is very strange. He has the feeling of just being. I don't sense gayness, but I've been wrong. He admits that he is what he calls a Jane girl, sorta like a tom boy. I've snuck around and read his blog and saw that he had a relationship with a woman, sooo. But at this point I'm not really thinking about serious relationshippy things. I'm all about the trying to get in there and see if he is interested in spending time with me and getting to know me. But I assume from the previous behaviors that are there in my previous posts, that he is. I sent an email to him because he said he had a story that he had to tell me and he didn't get a chance. I dropped my messenger names and such into it and kind of gave the permission and signaled intent to get to know better. I didn't say anything that would be deemed scary, or intimidating. I ran it by boys before hand which analyzed every detail with male eyes. So, it's up in the air, but he is busy cause he's going to protest the school of Americas and going home for Thanksgiving so he may not check his mail until he gets back. I'm not even sure how often he does anyway.
The first one I remember was in high school it was with a really good friend of mine named Chris. I felt so electric, yet comfortable when I was around him. He was pretty shy, geeky, dorky, etc. But something about him appealed to me. I was the first chick he danced with I think. He was huggy with me, but not anyone else. But I didn't do a good job of feeling it out I think. I told him I liked him and it got weird and we lost touch.
Then there was Nathan in college. Don't know why I liked him so much. I mean he's a great guy, adorable for some reason. Perverted in an innocent kind of way. We were snuggly and liked a lot of the same things, and I told him that I liked him and he let it percolate for the summer and then we came back and he told me that he wouldn't be opposed to things happening. And left it at that, which is guyese for oooh yah. That's what I've been told since then. But I fucked it up because I got with Daniel. Damnit! I'm still kicking my ass for that one.
Now there's the guy at school. I feel the same way as the ones above. You look at him and wouldn't initally see the appeal, but something is there that makes him irresitable to me. I think it's the personality, intellegence and humor. I'm a sucker for a smart guy. I swoon in their smartness, and funny to boot! I mean those of you that know me know that my sense of humor is strange, but here's a guy that jokes with me about God getting drunk and making a deal with the devil! And us being God's pets! Perfection. But there's the thing that he is very strange. He has the feeling of just being. I don't sense gayness, but I've been wrong. He admits that he is what he calls a Jane girl, sorta like a tom boy. I've snuck around and read his blog and saw that he had a relationship with a woman, sooo. But at this point I'm not really thinking about serious relationshippy things. I'm all about the trying to get in there and see if he is interested in spending time with me and getting to know me. But I assume from the previous behaviors that are there in my previous posts, that he is. I sent an email to him because he said he had a story that he had to tell me and he didn't get a chance. I dropped my messenger names and such into it and kind of gave the permission and signaled intent to get to know better. I didn't say anything that would be deemed scary, or intimidating. I ran it by boys before hand which analyzed every detail with male eyes. So, it's up in the air, but he is busy cause he's going to protest the school of Americas and going home for Thanksgiving so he may not check his mail until he gets back. I'm not even sure how often he does anyway.