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so i get this shocking, almost wonderful, feeling through my heart when i listen to good songs. it makes me want to cry. i'm listening to an old mix cd that i've had for almost a year and a half. but havent listened to it in a very long time. it makes my heart swell to hear them again.
okay this might sound weird but whatever. whenever i talk to certain people. okay certain guys. i get that same feeling but it goes down through my hands all the way to my feet and then back up again. this confuses me. i dont know why i get it. just looking into this persons eyes sends this feeling through me again. even if its just a picture. someone once said that eyes are the window to the soul but it feels like i've been turned inside out. odd.
i hate teenage years. i feel so confused. i want to understand what this is, but lack the proper experiance to really know. the only other time i had that feeling was almost 3 years ago. it was raining. i had run away from home, again. and i was walking to my boyfriends house [now ex]. we met half way and laughed at how soaked we both were. and we shared our first kiss together. standing in the rain, thunder and lightening, on a random sidewalk in Sacramento. i feel like i have so much passion that i cant express because there is no one here i can express it to. and again this makes me want to cry. these memories. i feel as if that was another life, someone elses that i've been watching as if in a movie. in a happier life perhaps.
i'm done, i think 3 paragraphs of venting is enough for one night. comment if you have some insight or just comment for the hell of it.
noise and kisses,
amber
okay this might sound weird but whatever. whenever i talk to certain people. okay certain guys. i get that same feeling but it goes down through my hands all the way to my feet and then back up again. this confuses me. i dont know why i get it. just looking into this persons eyes sends this feeling through me again. even if its just a picture. someone once said that eyes are the window to the soul but it feels like i've been turned inside out. odd.
i hate teenage years. i feel so confused. i want to understand what this is, but lack the proper experiance to really know. the only other time i had that feeling was almost 3 years ago. it was raining. i had run away from home, again. and i was walking to my boyfriends house [now ex]. we met half way and laughed at how soaked we both were. and we shared our first kiss together. standing in the rain, thunder and lightening, on a random sidewalk in Sacramento. i feel like i have so much passion that i cant express because there is no one here i can express it to. and again this makes me want to cry. these memories. i feel as if that was another life, someone elses that i've been watching as if in a movie. in a happier life perhaps.
i'm done, i think 3 paragraphs of venting is enough for one night. comment if you have some insight or just comment for the hell of it.
noise and kisses,
amber