Work sucks
So depressed. The weather sucks. It is definitely a stay in bed day. It was so hard to get up and get going this morning.
Work has sucked last week and this week is headed in that direction. I have fought with my father everyday for the last four days I have worked. Today it was because he hasn't given Gary a raise in over a year and I saw his W2 yesterday. He made less than $3000 more than Tom who was on unemployment. That isn't right. This is a hard job and as knowledgeable as he is he deserves a raise. Of course I mention it and it's not my place & if he does that he has to rates -which I think are too high anyway- he can't afford it, etc.
Yesterday it was the way he treats me, my kids, customers, etc. His tones with people, actions, behaviors, body language etc. He made me cry I was so angry. I almost went home, if I had had a car, I would have left. However Tom and Sara showed up, Tom and I went outside vented, smoked and cooled off a bit. When I went back in he had calmed down & so had I so we talked and I stayed.
After today's "discussion" I told him that if Tom had a job I wouldn't be working here. I wouldn't. And if Tom would get a job making decent money I probably will quit. I don't need this shit. I want to be happy, not depressed. I don't know if it's job stress, other stressors or a combination of the two. I don't feel stress in other areas. At least I don't conscientiously.
I really don't know what to do. I guess I really need to put more of an effort into finding another job. I hate to do that, it's so discouraging and I don't know if I could find anything else that would afford the perks- leaving early if I need to, being late without a "write up", being able to borrow money from the boss, etc.
Work has sucked last week and this week is headed in that direction. I have fought with my father everyday for the last four days I have worked. Today it was because he hasn't given Gary a raise in over a year and I saw his W2 yesterday. He made less than $3000 more than Tom who was on unemployment. That isn't right. This is a hard job and as knowledgeable as he is he deserves a raise. Of course I mention it and it's not my place & if he does that he has to rates -which I think are too high anyway- he can't afford it, etc.
Yesterday it was the way he treats me, my kids, customers, etc. His tones with people, actions, behaviors, body language etc. He made me cry I was so angry. I almost went home, if I had had a car, I would have left. However Tom and Sara showed up, Tom and I went outside vented, smoked and cooled off a bit. When I went back in he had calmed down & so had I so we talked and I stayed.
After today's "discussion" I told him that if Tom had a job I wouldn't be working here. I wouldn't. And if Tom would get a job making decent money I probably will quit. I don't need this shit. I want to be happy, not depressed. I don't know if it's job stress, other stressors or a combination of the two. I don't feel stress in other areas. At least I don't conscientiously.
I really don't know what to do. I guess I really need to put more of an effort into finding another job. I hate to do that, it's so discouraging and I don't know if I could find anything else that would afford the perks- leaving early if I need to, being late without a "write up", being able to borrow money from the boss, etc.