Whiny, Emo, and Ready
I was surfing around myspace this morning and found a picture of this guy I had a fling with and his new girlfriend. Although I'm over it to the best that I will ever be over anything, at one time I really liked this guy and he hurt my feelings quite a bit when he lost interest. Maybe it was in the way he did it-- he lost interest, gained interest again, lost it, gained it again...pretty much jerked me around. After everything was over for good (I think me pouring beer all over him sealed the deal), his friends and sister continued to harshly gossip about me. None of them ever liked me for some unknown reason. I was always nice to all of them, but they continually were spreading rumors about me and just being downright bitchy and immature all the time.
In fact, it continues to this day. Not too long ago they even convinced one of their other friends (I didn't know at the time that this guy was friends with them) to go out on a date with me in order to "throw me off" in attempt to make me feel worse than I already did.
I know that I should just ignore it, which I do in public, but being sensitive by nature and wanting to be nice and friendly to everyone makes it difficult for me to understand why they hate me so much and seem to love this new girlfriend of his. What makes it worse is that I have to see these people all the time and they just make me want to vomit.
And this guy, apparently he was just using me to get away from this other girl who liked him or something of that nature. Which gets me to thinking...what makes someone like me the kind of person who gets used and what makes his new girlfriend the kind of person whom everyone wants to keep around? I mean, maybe nothing. Maybe it's just the way life works; I don't know. I'm glad I didn't end up with this guy, but I just wish that his friends would respect and at least try not to be so cruel.
I guess it goes to show you that some people never grow up. However, through the situation I really started to appreciate my true friends. Although they may not be the most popular and on everyone's party list, they are great people: loyal, mature (well...in this sense anyway), good listeners, etc.
I forced myself to enlarge the picture of old fling and new girlfriend, and I stared at it for a couple seconds.
Over it.
In fact, it continues to this day. Not too long ago they even convinced one of their other friends (I didn't know at the time that this guy was friends with them) to go out on a date with me in order to "throw me off" in attempt to make me feel worse than I already did.
I know that I should just ignore it, which I do in public, but being sensitive by nature and wanting to be nice and friendly to everyone makes it difficult for me to understand why they hate me so much and seem to love this new girlfriend of his. What makes it worse is that I have to see these people all the time and they just make me want to vomit.
And this guy, apparently he was just using me to get away from this other girl who liked him or something of that nature. Which gets me to thinking...what makes someone like me the kind of person who gets used and what makes his new girlfriend the kind of person whom everyone wants to keep around? I mean, maybe nothing. Maybe it's just the way life works; I don't know. I'm glad I didn't end up with this guy, but I just wish that his friends would respect and at least try not to be so cruel.
I guess it goes to show you that some people never grow up. However, through the situation I really started to appreciate my true friends. Although they may not be the most popular and on everyone's party list, they are great people: loyal, mature (well...in this sense anyway), good listeners, etc.
I forced myself to enlarge the picture of old fling and new girlfriend, and I stared at it for a couple seconds.
Over it.