A pure emotional vomit
Tonight Sarah and I went to North Bend State Park (just four miles down the road) and acted absolutely silly. I think that's one of her best qualities: when anyone's with her, they're guaranteed to have a fun time and not worry about the bore of life. They have this huge map of the United States painted onto the concrete beside some basketball courts, and we would stand in the middle, close our eyes, spin until we were entirely dizzy, then the other person would name a state and the person in the middle would have to try to find it with their eyes still shut. It was more challenging than one might think. Then we walked on one of the trails in the dark and kept going until we started talking about bears and Timothy Treadwell and got kind of scared; I think I was more spooked than she was, but it's kind of fun to feel like that once in awhile.
After all of that I talked to Keegan...I don't know what it is, but lately everytime I talk to him I pick a fight and act like an absolute bitch. I mean, I know why I do it, but at the same time I don't want to be doing it. I have the habit of falling into the role of the needy one in the relationship, but once in awhile I want to feel needed, too. And I'd like to see him more than I do, but...ah, I don't know. We can never see eye to eye on certain things. We were finally on the same page when he says, "Remember that girl Jennifer I went out with from Kohl's? Well, she was so dry, funny, and witty it wasn't fun. I had no one to laugh at my jokes." WTF? First of all, Jennifer is already a sore spot because he was talking to both of us at the same time without letting me (and maybe her, I have no idea) know. I found out in a roundabout way and wasn't very happy. And then he pretty much implies that I am in no way dry, funny, or witty like this girl Jennifer. When I started acting pissy, he "took it back...you know what I mean, I was just using an example, the context of it..." WTF? Are guys REALLY that stupid?
I've always laughed at everything, even if it's not funny. Maybe that's my role in life.
After all of that I talked to Keegan...I don't know what it is, but lately everytime I talk to him I pick a fight and act like an absolute bitch. I mean, I know why I do it, but at the same time I don't want to be doing it. I have the habit of falling into the role of the needy one in the relationship, but once in awhile I want to feel needed, too. And I'd like to see him more than I do, but...ah, I don't know. We can never see eye to eye on certain things. We were finally on the same page when he says, "Remember that girl Jennifer I went out with from Kohl's? Well, she was so dry, funny, and witty it wasn't fun. I had no one to laugh at my jokes." WTF? First of all, Jennifer is already a sore spot because he was talking to both of us at the same time without letting me (and maybe her, I have no idea) know. I found out in a roundabout way and wasn't very happy. And then he pretty much implies that I am in no way dry, funny, or witty like this girl Jennifer. When I started acting pissy, he "took it back...you know what I mean, I was just using an example, the context of it..." WTF? Are guys REALLY that stupid?
I've always laughed at everything, even if it's not funny. Maybe that's my role in life.