I AM STAYING HOME... till this problem is dealt with
I am sick of not knowing what is going on. I am sick of being sick. i just decided that tommorrow i am going to take a stand and stab my fork into this problem. i am going to the doctor. i am going to wake up and tell my mother that she needs to take me to the doctor and that i cannot go to school one more day one more period until this issue is settled. i am sick of having to try to convince myself that everything is fine when its totally not. i cant sit one more day in class mentally telling myself that i am not sick and telling myself that i will make it through the day without going insane. why the hell am i sitting in class trying to convince myself that i can conquer a disease when i need to be in the doctor office getting professional help. I am sick of accomodating to the damn public school and to school in general... do they have any idea whta i go through each and evrey day just to fucking get there? and then they complain about me being late. the nerve them bitches. i am fucking sick daily. and i wake my ass up and come to school as quickly as i am. and u know what i have done really well for what i have to deal with. i am not putting up with this anymore though. i am going to find out for sure what is going on tomorow or else im staying at home and not going anywhere. i am bawling my eyes out - because i am fed up with fighting this daily battle. i will sit at home all day tomorrow if i have to.