When All Is Said and Done.
So, the german students came and went home, and they just left me here standing, still waving my hand.
I'll be honest: It was nothing, NOTHING, like last year exchange, but again, maybe it's just my fault.
It's just that I expected too much. Because last year was something I won't be able to forget EVER. I know it.
Cause last year has changed me, in ways I never belived possible.
But I don't want to make another post to say what it's already been said, another praise would be useless, and by the way, I don't really have much left to say about them, beside I miss you :(
This year was...distant. I mean, there wasn't really closure between us.
Maybe i saw something at the end. I felt something at end, when our time was running out (it's always like this dammit!).
There were one or two people with whom I found that complicity that follows an exchange.
There were one or two people I found myself drawn to a bit. But there's just one person I miss. (Last year was like, everyone!)
Though I'm glad there's at least this one person. It reassures me that It was worth it, afterall. That everything I went through wasn't for nothing.
But, there were no tears at the end (Last year everyone was fucking crying!) , when the bus was leaving.
Yes, there was sadness, at least for me, but also that tiniest bit of relief, that, where last year was overcome by tears and sorrow, this year was clearly there, waving his cruel hand at my ashamed self, which was trying hard to suppress it.
Is it just the myth of the First Time? The one that: you can't forget the first time and bla bla bla? was that it?
I don't know. Maybe.
Or maybe it was the people. Or maybe it was, i don't know, the age of the people. Or maybe it was that there were too many guys...(xD)
I'm not saying it didn't work.
Because it DID.
I enjoyed it. Fucking hell, of course I enjoyed it.
Just, not as much as I expected.
But I shall be damned if I'll regret one single thing I've done. Cause I meant it. Every single thing I did.
If need be something, I regret not doing something, I regret waiting (again) until the end to know some people better.
But afterall, I'm pretty satisfied. I managed to leave something of me to al least one person, and I managed to make at least one friend to keep in touch with :)
Well, what else can i say, nearly everyhing has been said and done.
Just a warm thank you to you all german partners, because we tried to have fun and we were succesful. :)
Thank you, my new italians friends, cause we handle the whole thing pretty well, without big dramas or anything.. :D
Thank you to my exchanging partner,Nathalie, cause even if we didn't exactly matched, we can say we tried, even just a little bit :)
And thanks to Verena, because she surprised me and made my day, not just once :D
Special thanks to V for Vendetta, in the name of whom one night, three ( or five) brilliant minds came together with such enthusiastic delight ;)
Echoing a famous ABBA song:
"Thanks for all your generous love and thanks for all the fun
Neither you nor I'm to blame when all is said and done"
When All Is Said and Done.
ABBA.
ps: V ich vermisse dich :(
pps: it's becoming trite I know, but Laura, I miss youuuuuuuu T.T
ppps: Recently Read : Annie on My Mind, Kissing Kate, Keeping you a Secret. Good books; I espeacially liked the last one *nods*
From the left: Miriam (Italian), Me, Nathalie, Verena (germans)
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I'll be honest: It was nothing, NOTHING, like last year exchange, but again, maybe it's just my fault.
It's just that I expected too much. Because last year was something I won't be able to forget EVER. I know it.
Cause last year has changed me, in ways I never belived possible.
But I don't want to make another post to say what it's already been said, another praise would be useless, and by the way, I don't really have much left to say about them, beside I miss you :(
This year was...distant. I mean, there wasn't really closure between us.
Maybe i saw something at the end. I felt something at end, when our time was running out (it's always like this dammit!).
There were one or two people with whom I found that complicity that follows an exchange.
There were one or two people I found myself drawn to a bit. But there's just one person I miss. (Last year was like, everyone!)
Though I'm glad there's at least this one person. It reassures me that It was worth it, afterall. That everything I went through wasn't for nothing.
But, there were no tears at the end (Last year everyone was fucking crying!) , when the bus was leaving.
Yes, there was sadness, at least for me, but also that tiniest bit of relief, that, where last year was overcome by tears and sorrow, this year was clearly there, waving his cruel hand at my ashamed self, which was trying hard to suppress it.
Is it just the myth of the First Time? The one that: you can't forget the first time and bla bla bla? was that it?
I don't know. Maybe.
Or maybe it was the people. Or maybe it was, i don't know, the age of the people. Or maybe it was that there were too many guys...(xD)
I'm not saying it didn't work.
Because it DID.
I enjoyed it. Fucking hell, of course I enjoyed it.
Just, not as much as I expected.
But I shall be damned if I'll regret one single thing I've done. Cause I meant it. Every single thing I did.
If need be something, I regret not doing something, I regret waiting (again) until the end to know some people better.
But afterall, I'm pretty satisfied. I managed to leave something of me to al least one person, and I managed to make at least one friend to keep in touch with :)
Well, what else can i say, nearly everyhing has been said and done.
Just a warm thank you to you all german partners, because we tried to have fun and we were succesful. :)
Thank you, my new italians friends, cause we handle the whole thing pretty well, without big dramas or anything.. :D
Thank you to my exchanging partner,Nathalie, cause even if we didn't exactly matched, we can say we tried, even just a little bit :)
And thanks to Verena, because she surprised me and made my day, not just once :D
Special thanks to V for Vendetta, in the name of whom one night, three ( or five) brilliant minds came together with such enthusiastic delight ;)
Echoing a famous ABBA song:
"Thanks for all your generous love and thanks for all the fun
Neither you nor I'm to blame when all is said and done"
When All Is Said and Done.
ABBA.
ps: V ich vermisse dich :(
pps: it's becoming trite I know, but Laura, I miss youuuuuuuu T.T
ppps: Recently Read : Annie on My Mind, Kissing Kate, Keeping you a Secret. Good books; I espeacially liked the last one *nods*
From the left: Miriam (Italian), Me, Nathalie, Verena (germans)
.