I'm not going to let life get me down
So, things have been crazy. School is starting up next week. I worked thing out with Tyler, and have actually gotten gas money, etc. from him. We haven't seen each other much this week, since he's been heavy duty into his whole MMA training thing. But, I'm kinda enjoying the alone time, though I do kinda feel a straing. I had a pretty good afternoon with him though, in between his trips to the gym.
In other aspects of my life... money is still an issue, though I am starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. The only thing that's really bothering me is that today, I found out my grandma has leukemia. I'm not sure how to handle it all, but that's part of how my afternoon with Tyler was spent. He was being really supportive and comforting, and I really needed that. I'm not sure what's going to happen, but it'll definitely affect me one way or the other. I don't want her to be going through all this alone in the middle of South Dakota. Its partly my nature to up and move to go take care of her, but I don't think that's really an option right now. I need to stay in school, though I may be able to pull off taking a term off. But, probably no more than that.
In any event, I'm going to enjoy myself with friends at my home tonight. As shitty as it all is, I need to be thankful and grateful for what I have. And what I have is pretty damned good. I have good friends, a home I feel safe in, a cute/rambunctious dog, a wonderful family, and an enormous amount of liquor. Whatever happens, there is always a silver lining to every dark cloud. And I'm not going to sulk or get depressed. I'm going to accept the things I can not change, and I'm going to strive to fix the things I can.
In other aspects of my life... money is still an issue, though I am starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. The only thing that's really bothering me is that today, I found out my grandma has leukemia. I'm not sure how to handle it all, but that's part of how my afternoon with Tyler was spent. He was being really supportive and comforting, and I really needed that. I'm not sure what's going to happen, but it'll definitely affect me one way or the other. I don't want her to be going through all this alone in the middle of South Dakota. Its partly my nature to up and move to go take care of her, but I don't think that's really an option right now. I need to stay in school, though I may be able to pull off taking a term off. But, probably no more than that.
In any event, I'm going to enjoy myself with friends at my home tonight. As shitty as it all is, I need to be thankful and grateful for what I have. And what I have is pretty damned good. I have good friends, a home I feel safe in, a cute/rambunctious dog, a wonderful family, and an enormous amount of liquor. Whatever happens, there is always a silver lining to every dark cloud. And I'm not going to sulk or get depressed. I'm going to accept the things I can not change, and I'm going to strive to fix the things I can.