well I am kinda down but not really for any reason
Well I havent updated in a while so I figured I might as well even though I am tired as fuck. Not a whole lot going on these days which may be the problem. There is not really a big problem I mean I am not on the virge of suicide or anything but I just dont feel right for some reason. I mean I havent been doing anything wrong latley which would normally make me feel bad other than not dont my best in school even though I am kicking ass in one class I just wish that it was all three. I dont know what it is but I feel there is something I am not doing or maybe I am missing something in life that is causing this. I just cant put my finger on it. I have a new job now its at the Varsity and its decent the moneys pretty good but I hate waiting on people it can be so degrading. I mean think of it, it's kind of like modern day slavery in its own way of course there is really no comparison to real slavery but I mean I kiss ass for a living and bow to peoples every whim. Oh well I needed money fast. I also need to pay my credit card down its getting pretty high. Well one of the main positives in my life at this time is the TOOL concert tommorow night!!! I have quite a few friends coming in from all around the state coming in for it. It has been a long time since I have seen alot of those people. No offense to anyone who reads this journal I am not talking about you at all (Holly,Laura or anybody else who reads this) but I have come to discover that I have so many fake freinds in the city not real friends like I used to have. So maybe this will cheer me up not to mention that I am getting to see on of my favorite bands of all time!!!!!!!!
I swear TOOL fucking rocks!!! We are going to party our asses off tommorow. well damn I dont know of much my family is doing well I thank God every day because they have been so good to me. I love my sister to death she is so awesome! I guess one good thing that has come of this little mini-deppression is the fact that I have lost some weight, now if I could just replace it with some muscle that would be alright. lets see I dont know much else too talk about school and work are about all I have going on right now so. Oh shit I almost forgot (I dont care if I sound like a sport-o so fuck off) GO SOONERS!!!!!
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I swear TOOL fucking rocks!!! We are going to party our asses off tommorow. well damn I dont know of much my family is doing well I thank God every day because they have been so good to me. I love my sister to death she is so awesome! I guess one good thing that has come of this little mini-deppression is the fact that I have lost some weight, now if I could just replace it with some muscle that would be alright. lets see I dont know much else too talk about school and work are about all I have going on right now so. Oh shit I almost forgot (I dont care if I sound like a sport-o so fuck off) GO SOONERS!!!!!
More ramblings to come...