Hey guys.

I decided it was time for an actual update on my journal. I've been kinda distracted lately, work overload (I managed to get 28 extra hours in the first two weeks of April, therefore having only one free day in said time, which happened to me Easter Monday), way too many friends to catch up on cause I didn't really get the chance, worrying ( Read more... )

For all the fans of this fanfiction, waiting has come to an end. For now at least. While I wanted to upload chapter four of the story (which I only wrote yesterday), I realized I've never uploaded part two of chapter three. Chapter four will be posted tomorrow, if I remember to do it, if not, it will be by the end of the week, hopefully. ;)

I won't ( Read more... )

Maybe, Maybe

I can try
Give me a smile
And I’ll be trying for you

I can fly
Give me a smile
And I’ll be flying for you

Should I be on
Should I be off
Should I cry
Should I laugh

I don’t know
What to do
But I know
I need you

I can cry
Give me a smile
And I’ll be crying for you

I can lie
Give me a smile
And I’ll be lying for you

Should I be on
( Read more... )

Fractures

„You need to talk about it.“

“About what?”

“How you feel.”

“I don’t know how to feel. Never have.”

You know there’s something you missed on your way to where you are now. You are empty, hollow inside. Lack of motivation maybe or it could be the not caring. You don’t know exactly. You don’t want to know.

You just want to forget ( Read more... )

Author: Steph
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Rating: K
Warnings: Child Abuse, Violence
Characters: Anthony DiNozzo, Leroy Jethro Gibbs, Kelly Gibbs
Summary: "And what do you want for Christmas, Anthony?"

Author's Note: Well... I have to apologize for not updating earlier. I've been caught up with school and preperation for the Abitur, so ( Read more... )

Author: Steph
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Rating: K
Spoilers: Information up to Hiatus needed for full understanding.
Warnings: Suicide
Character: Leroy Jethro Gibbs

Summary.
He endured nearly the same faith and that was enough to convince the man that suicide was not a solution to his problems but only surrender and the permission ( Read more... )

Author: Steph
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Drama
Rating: T
Spoilers: Hints for Hiatus, but nothing serious.
Warnings: Mention of Child Abuse, Suicide
Characters: Anthony DiNozzo, Leroy Jethro Gibbs
Pairing: Gibbs/DiNozzo

Author's Note: Just another shortcut that came to mind while listening to the song "Same Mistake" by James Blunt. Couldn't do anything but ( Read more... )

#1 The Color Of Ruin

Tony’s POV

I had been almost convinced that I wouldn’t get out of the living hell I managed to put myself in this time. Almost. I was sure that I wouldn’t make it. I knew I was in a critical condition and the moment they all left me alone in that glass cage with the disturbing blue of the UV-lights shining on my face I ( Read more... )

Author: Steph
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Rating: K
Warnings: Child Abuse, Violence
Characters: Anthony DiNozzo, Leroy Jethro Gibbs, Kelly Gibbs
Summary: "And what do you want for Christmas, Anthony?"

Author's Note: I know I said this was going to be a two-shot but I've been writing and writing ans suddenly I had more than 7.000 words ( Read more... )

Author: Steph
Fandom: NCIS
Genre: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort
Rating: K
Warnings: Child Abuse, Violence
Characters: Anthony DiNozzo, Leroy Jethro Gibbs, Kelly Gibbs
Summary: "And what do you want for Christmas, Anthony?"

Author's Note: This was originally intended to be a Christmas one-shot but it turned out to be long enough to make two chapters of it, so ( Read more... )