Comments | sunseenli: It's A Quarter After One, I'm A Little Drunk And I Need You Now

sunseenli

It's A Quarter After One, I'm A Little Drunk And I Need You Now

May 09, 2012 21:59

It seems like it's been "Old School Week" on Facebook in regards to cosplay recently, and I have to admit it's been really nice. I've had some amazing times, and more importantly, I've met some amazing people. While either the scene has changed, or I've just moved further from the center, I still have the time of my life every time I get dressed ( Read more... )

deep thoughts, photos, weight

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sunseenli May 10 2012, 10:29:40 UTC

Yes. That IS exactly what I was ranting about.

Look, I don't mean to be offensive, because I believe the reason you posted this comment was to reassure me about my looks, but really, what was the thought process behind posting this comment? After you read me saying, "I am upset when I hear this, and this is why it makes me feel bad," why did you post it anyway? I'm not asking to be snarky--maybe if you explain what you were thinking, I'll be able to understand what other people are thinking as well.

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sunseenli May 10 2012, 22:08:08 UTC

Basicly, that you are beautiful in general. Facially and whatnot without even going into weight.

Well, I thank you for the sentiment.

But as I said so long as your healthy about the weight loss/toning people can ALWAYS improve their general health.

No, I'll be honest. I'm not doing this for my health. I'm doing this for my looks--for my emotional and mental health, if you will.

nessabutterfly May 10 2012, 02:36:12 UTC

I actually think you look better in the heavier Miko Rei/ Kikyo picture than the lighter one-- is that funny? But I totally get what you're saying ( ... )

sunseenli May 10 2012, 10:50:32 UTC

I actually think you look better in the heavier Miko Rei/ Kikyo picture than the lighter one-- is that funny? But I totally get what you're saying.

I don't know if I'd say it's funny--I guess I'd ask what you prefer about the first picture over the second.

I've had massive weight fluctuations throughout my life and have to laugh when I look back at the comments I've had at each size. I felt like a whale at my heaviest in college (which was 25 lbs HEAVIER than I was just before each of my kids was born!!), but I can feel just as bad when I'm underweight, or even at a "healthy" weight. Either that, or I'll have a love/hate thing going on at any weight. I hate how skinny I've been the last few months while I've been sick, but I find myself resistant to gain the weight to get back into a "normal" range. Weight is such a messy issue.

I'm hazarding a guess here, but my guess would be that you hate how skinny you've become, because you hate the how and why you got skinny--which is completely understandable.

And then there are the people ( ... )

nessabutterfly May 10 2012, 17:44:42 UTC

sunseenli May 14 2012, 10:45:18 UTC

In the first picture, I prefer your rounder face over the really thin face. Your body looks great in the second pic, but your cheeks look a little sunken (though it might be the lighting or you could just be tired). I've noticed the same thing with myself when I get really thin-- deep pits in my collarbones, for example, that make me look too thin.

Aww, I like the "hollows of collarbones" when I can get them. But I understand that's a personal preference.

I've had times when I was too thin for much less serious health reasons too-- like when I first found out about my food allergies and couldn't find anything safe to eat. It was as close to a typical "diet" as I've ever done. I was 10 lbs under the healthy range for my height, and while I liked being a size 4, I knew it wasn't healthy and I needed to gain some weight back. (My icon is me at that super low weight-- with fake boobs. Padded bra FTW!) It might have been hard for me to watch myself gain the weight as I started finding safe brands of food and ate a regular diet again, ( ... )

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shouki May 10 2012, 03:43:09 UTC

It's only wafer thin!

I treat it with levity.

Keep up the good work--I wish I had the discipline that is necessary to achieve washboard abs instead of this memory-foam pillow.

sunseenli May 10 2012, 11:00:08 UTC

It's only wafer thin!

I treat it with levity.

LOL! Well, you're different. Monty Python in-jokes are always okay.

Keep up the good work--I wish I had the discipline that is necessary to achieve washboard abs instead of this memory-foam pillow.

But you've lost weight, too! As someone who is very familiar with the sight of your waistline due to how many underwear checks I've performed, I can say this with confidence. I like the way you look--but I also respect your right to reserve judgment.

ssfseiyakou May 10 2012, 04:01:45 UTC

Do what you have to do and what you feel is right. So long as you are healthy and happy, that's all I care about. ♥

sunseenli May 10 2012, 11:01:48 UTC

Honestly, I'm willing to settle for "happy", at this point.

ssfseiyakou May 10 2012, 14:49:39 UTC

....don't get me started on that. I _will_ butt heads with you on this issue, because I love you and would sincerely like to have you in my life for as long as possible.

sunseenli May 14 2012, 10:26:58 UTC

Butt away, dear. I've got a hard head. =D

yumcheesy May 10 2012, 05:11:32 UTC

I think you look beautiful in all of the pictures and never noticed your weight until you pointed it out, in the diet-provoking picture I just thought "damn she's got big boobs!" and I was jealous :-) I understand worrying about weight tho, I freak out about my stomach and pants on a daily basis :-p I don't know if I'll ever look "good enough" for my own standards. We all care about you here, and support you no matter what :-) I bet Marvel's "fine" will soon be "fiiiiiiiine!" haha

You have really amazing legs btw! :-)

sunseenli May 10 2012, 11:24:02 UTC

I think you look beautiful in all of the pictures and never noticed your weight until you pointed it out, in the diet-provoking picture I just thought "damn she's got big boobs!" and I was jealous :-)

LOL! Okay, for what it's worth, I completely understand that some people didn't even notice my weight, because they never got any further than my chest. That's an entirely different scenario altogether.

I understand worrying about weight tho, I freak out about my stomach and pants on a daily basis :-p I don't know if I'll ever look "good enough" for my own standards.

Mmm. Yes. You've got a point. I don't know if I'll ever reach a stage where I'll be able to say, "That's it, I'm good." But I do know that I am happiER, when I'm "thin", then when I'm heavier.

We all care about you here, and support you no matter what :-) I bet Marvel's "fine" will soon be "fiiiiiiiine!" hahaI don't think his reaction will change because he truly doesn't see much of a difference--and the "small amount" of difference he does see, isn't enough to ( ... )