Today Was Good
Wow, I always seem to pick up Lj when I'm tired and alittle sad. But today has been happy. No sad things. No no sad things at all. Just happy. Happy cleaning the house. It was great to feel normal. I've been doing really well. I've been fine w/ my life. I'm getting along w/ my mom. I'm not angry at Frankie. I talk to Andy and Benny and I shop for dorm stuff. It's been great.
And then I just got a Facebook. Fuck. I just clicked on Stanford people. Sucks! Cuz then I feel kinda sad I'm not going there. But really...what did a public school kid in a preppy little world have a chance to get in?
I guess if I never ever went out or saw my friends I would have gotten in. Cuz then I would of focused all my energy into grades and tests and all that fun stuff, right? No, I don't regret it. I like my fun. My fun likes me.
I wrote a bunch of thank you cards and organized all the folders in my desk. It's great. I feel good writing thank you cards. Stamps are cute.
In Retrospect on 8/20/2006 I write: No, I believe it is my own fault I didn't get into Stanford cuz I just didn't focus enough of my life on that. Well that's not bad cuz I don't believe life is only about getting into a big, expensive school. College is what you make of it and same for life for any matter. I didn't get into Stanford. That's life. I learned and grew from a lot of things in my life and I don't regret any of it.
Lol...this reminds me of the prison letter from V for Vendetta. THis is Melody signing off.
And then I just got a Facebook. Fuck. I just clicked on Stanford people. Sucks! Cuz then I feel kinda sad I'm not going there. But really...what did a public school kid in a preppy little world have a chance to get in?
I guess if I never ever went out or saw my friends I would have gotten in. Cuz then I would of focused all my energy into grades and tests and all that fun stuff, right? No, I don't regret it. I like my fun. My fun likes me.
I wrote a bunch of thank you cards and organized all the folders in my desk. It's great. I feel good writing thank you cards. Stamps are cute.
In Retrospect on 8/20/2006 I write: No, I believe it is my own fault I didn't get into Stanford cuz I just didn't focus enough of my life on that. Well that's not bad cuz I don't believe life is only about getting into a big, expensive school. College is what you make of it and same for life for any matter. I didn't get into Stanford. That's life. I learned and grew from a lot of things in my life and I don't regret any of it.
Lol...this reminds me of the prison letter from V for Vendetta. THis is Melody signing off.