Busy and Happy
Sooo there seems to be so much going on. So many plans are being made and so much to take in and enjoy.
Things I am proud of myself for learning off the top of my head:
I am a good person.
I love my friends.
I trust my friends.
I love my teachers.
I am a smart person.
I am a beautiful woman.
I don't need a bf even though I have one.
I don't need anybody else to make me happy.
I am not a bad daughter.
I will not let the things that use to bother me in life stop me from succeeding.
If a person wants an excuse, they'll find an excuse;
That person is not gonna be me.
I have so much of life ahead of me and it's gonna be AWESTRIKING.
I have the power to make so much more of life beautiful.
I talked to Frankie last night. The way I came by that is a story. Not the most exciting but I think it's interesting. Then I hit a cone on the way home and now my car has a little booboo. :(. It's ok. Stupid construction.
I passed Calculus and I love Mrs. Haas. She made me promise her to do the many things that I think I have loved that I previously mentioned. Of course there is always room to master these skills I mean.
I went to Knotts and it was tons of fun. I laugh the loudest and most freely. Cuz I know how good I have it. Lol...today we also took "cousin" photobooth pictures and Brian's head IS SOOO BIG! Lol. And I'm fun to hang out with. I know. Cuz I care about everybody. (though, that tends to break my heart sometimes when people just don't care).
I think I've been able to come to terms or at least make my past experiences into positive changes in my life. It's been really hard cuz of such deep emotions. But I guess I learned that they really shouldn't be so deep or "life-changing". Yes, they are very life changing. But not to the point where I should just stop living for repentance. I do repent, I do want to say sorry and do things to make up for them. I find that I can first start by just living a happy life. For then forgiveness can spring from forgivness. lol, made up words?
I don't let my mother ever EVER make me believe for a second I'm a bad person. Today she tried to guilt me about what I recently shared w/ her. Like she tried to make me feel like what I went through and my sharing it w/ her made her depressed and that I'm spreading it. She is very weak. She is very immature to try and blame me for that. A lot of things that happen in life aren't anybody's fault. That's just how life happened. Then the ones that care enough feel guilty and get sad and that's no good.
Graduation coming along. Let go of a lot of things. But I'm getting back into the things I use to like to do. I'm commenting more w/ friends, I'm talking on aim w/ friends more. U know...that whole being happy thing. I'm aspiring to write better writing more. The best part is that I think I can do all these things and I WANT to. I don't just sit around thinking of how terrible things are or just feeling sad or something. I'm so glad I can finally get my gears moving again.
I'm so happy I can use my new perspective of life to help all aspects of events that happen.
I hope to perpetual this success and happiness to all those around me.
Things I am proud of myself for learning off the top of my head:
I am a good person.
I love my friends.
I trust my friends.
I love my teachers.
I am a smart person.
I am a beautiful woman.
I don't need a bf even though I have one.
I don't need anybody else to make me happy.
I am not a bad daughter.
I will not let the things that use to bother me in life stop me from succeeding.
If a person wants an excuse, they'll find an excuse;
That person is not gonna be me.
I have so much of life ahead of me and it's gonna be AWESTRIKING.
I have the power to make so much more of life beautiful.
I talked to Frankie last night. The way I came by that is a story. Not the most exciting but I think it's interesting. Then I hit a cone on the way home and now my car has a little booboo. :(. It's ok. Stupid construction.
I passed Calculus and I love Mrs. Haas. She made me promise her to do the many things that I think I have loved that I previously mentioned. Of course there is always room to master these skills I mean.
I went to Knotts and it was tons of fun. I laugh the loudest and most freely. Cuz I know how good I have it. Lol...today we also took "cousin" photobooth pictures and Brian's head IS SOOO BIG! Lol. And I'm fun to hang out with. I know. Cuz I care about everybody. (though, that tends to break my heart sometimes when people just don't care).
I think I've been able to come to terms or at least make my past experiences into positive changes in my life. It's been really hard cuz of such deep emotions. But I guess I learned that they really shouldn't be so deep or "life-changing". Yes, they are very life changing. But not to the point where I should just stop living for repentance. I do repent, I do want to say sorry and do things to make up for them. I find that I can first start by just living a happy life. For then forgiveness can spring from forgivness. lol, made up words?
I don't let my mother ever EVER make me believe for a second I'm a bad person. Today she tried to guilt me about what I recently shared w/ her. Like she tried to make me feel like what I went through and my sharing it w/ her made her depressed and that I'm spreading it. She is very weak. She is very immature to try and blame me for that. A lot of things that happen in life aren't anybody's fault. That's just how life happened. Then the ones that care enough feel guilty and get sad and that's no good.
Graduation coming along. Let go of a lot of things. But I'm getting back into the things I use to like to do. I'm commenting more w/ friends, I'm talking on aim w/ friends more. U know...that whole being happy thing. I'm aspiring to write better writing more. The best part is that I think I can do all these things and I WANT to. I don't just sit around thinking of how terrible things are or just feeling sad or something. I'm so glad I can finally get my gears moving again.
I'm so happy I can use my new perspective of life to help all aspects of events that happen.
I hope to perpetual this success and happiness to all those around me.