Xmas is going to be very different this year. I knew it was going be small. Plan up until tonight was that Mum and I would meet up at mums parents place for lunch, maybe one of mums brothers would be there, and that would be it. Nice and small. But now who knows what I'll do. Mum will be in Woolongong. Grandma and Grandpa will be in Innisfail, ( Read more... )

This song explains quite well how I feel at the moment..
[[Green = World, Pink = Spike, Strikeout = irrelevant, Blue = If Only..]]

Empty Promises by Behind Crimson Eyes

I hate you!
Those words go round and round my head
This isn't real...
I can't be dead
Look around as the sun goes down ( Read more... )

Today Spike and I decided to go on a brake..

Oh, and I got a prescription (and repeats) of the antidepressants I used to take.

Yeah.. my life thus far..

I'm gonna marry Spike after I finish my (4 year) apprenticeship, and Spike finishes his (2 year) traineeship and the (3 year) program that his work is working on. Hopefully by then we will have saved up enough money for a nice family/friends gathering. Maybe there will be a meal, and there has to be dancing, but nothing big and fancy ( Read more... )

I'm a bitch. I know I am, and I'm sorry to all those who have to endure what I put them through. I do or say things for my own amusement. I do think of the consequences, and I feel bad, but then I generally do nothing about it. Is that worse than not thinking about the consequences at all, I'd say it is.
It tears me up inside when I hurt my friends ( Read more... )

Two good weekends in a row. (I managed to loose my debit master card during one of them... but besides that they're both heaps good!!) =D

Last weekend:

Friday after work I went to the grand opening of a new venue called The Maram. Someone that I work with was playing drums in the band that played that night. He was awesome. The band was great! The ( Read more... )

It's about time I got a new mobile (cell) phone. I've had the one that I have now for a few years, possibly 5, maybe more. I've had problems with it ever since the warranty ran out. Damn warranty!! Not only has it been braking mechanically, but has been falling apart physically too ( Read more... )

It's Christmas tomorrow ( Read more... )

My mum played hockey last night, as usual, only unlike usual, last night she got injured ( Read more... )

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