A Smile Through a Tired Face
Woman and knowing their age isn't a good mix. The reason is obvious - you're not getting any older. For me though, I don't look my age (probably because I don't act my age; I shall blame my grandmother for the Peter Pan Syndrome) so it's not this. It's actually the fact that when you are getting older, you reflect back and it's the idea of not achieving much. Fair enough getting through to Further Education and getting a degree of a decent result should be admirable considering a degree is more of a package rather than a essential document.
Whenever we meet a new person, the topic of Who is Older seems to always creep up...and I don't like admitting to my age. I was in the shower (my thinking place) and I was reflecting on the fact I was going to turn twenty something, I was crying. I went from High School to College doing 2 years (fairly useful but I could've learnt it all during my freetime) and then 4 years of University (of which I'm not entirely interested in). So what have I actually achieved in the last 6 years? Nothing...I'm nowhere near where I want to be. I can only blame myself that it's taken until now to figure out what I really want to do and actually doing something about it. But how?
Well, originally I was thinking of doing Teaching English Abroad as it was better than nothing. I planned to go for February 2010 but the TEFL certificate would delayed and my deadline for the visa was beginning of Nov which means I wouldn't make it. But just so happens the Education Board was understaff so interviews would be delayed - visa deadline extended. Right so I still had a chance to go. Then my manager asked if I wanted to do this diamond course held in Summer 2010...so diamond course or Teaching English Abroad? I'm not going to miss any opportunity in doing the Teaching (well, hopefully not) plus my sister was thinking of doing it therefore considered going in Autumn 2010 which means I'll get to do diamond course I Summer 2010 and Teaching in Autumn 2010 - I'll have it all.
No. Something came up. An apprenticeship. It's for film industry! This was it....this is my calling. This was my chance. It starts January 2010 and it's for 18 months. It sounds amazing - teaching about the industry and getting mentors as well as placements. It's not paid which is fine because I would be at my part time job and I wouldn't feel guilty leaving them after completing my diamond course. Fingers crossed.
Yesterday was weird. I was all hyped up mainly because of the apprenticeship news. It was 1am and I was still awake, I seriously needed to go to sleep as I would be working 9am the next day. I ended up putting Xin Jing in my mp3 on repeat, it calmed me down mainly because it's boring...I did sleep but it didn't feel like it. I kept waking up. Then the 3rd time I woke up I felt a presence it was man, I knew him, dad but it was him when he was 42- 45. He touched me and that's why I woke up. He was trying to tell me something. But I knew he wasn't my dad so I ended up right against the wall to get away from him. Wasn't sure if I was awake or dreaming.
Main point would be - Things are about to change. Got lots of things to do. Let's Make It Happen.
PS. lots of dances I want to learn:
SHINee - Ring Ding Dong
SS501 - Love Like This
SNSD - Chocolate Love ?
All for the hell of it.
Whenever we meet a new person, the topic of Who is Older seems to always creep up...and I don't like admitting to my age. I was in the shower (my thinking place) and I was reflecting on the fact I was going to turn twenty something, I was crying. I went from High School to College doing 2 years (fairly useful but I could've learnt it all during my freetime) and then 4 years of University (of which I'm not entirely interested in). So what have I actually achieved in the last 6 years? Nothing...I'm nowhere near where I want to be. I can only blame myself that it's taken until now to figure out what I really want to do and actually doing something about it. But how?
Well, originally I was thinking of doing Teaching English Abroad as it was better than nothing. I planned to go for February 2010 but the TEFL certificate would delayed and my deadline for the visa was beginning of Nov which means I wouldn't make it. But just so happens the Education Board was understaff so interviews would be delayed - visa deadline extended. Right so I still had a chance to go. Then my manager asked if I wanted to do this diamond course held in Summer 2010...so diamond course or Teaching English Abroad? I'm not going to miss any opportunity in doing the Teaching (well, hopefully not) plus my sister was thinking of doing it therefore considered going in Autumn 2010 which means I'll get to do diamond course I Summer 2010 and Teaching in Autumn 2010 - I'll have it all.
No. Something came up. An apprenticeship. It's for film industry! This was it....this is my calling. This was my chance. It starts January 2010 and it's for 18 months. It sounds amazing - teaching about the industry and getting mentors as well as placements. It's not paid which is fine because I would be at my part time job and I wouldn't feel guilty leaving them after completing my diamond course. Fingers crossed.
Yesterday was weird. I was all hyped up mainly because of the apprenticeship news. It was 1am and I was still awake, I seriously needed to go to sleep as I would be working 9am the next day. I ended up putting Xin Jing in my mp3 on repeat, it calmed me down mainly because it's boring...I did sleep but it didn't feel like it. I kept waking up. Then the 3rd time I woke up I felt a presence it was man, I knew him, dad but it was him when he was 42- 45. He touched me and that's why I woke up. He was trying to tell me something. But I knew he wasn't my dad so I ended up right against the wall to get away from him. Wasn't sure if I was awake or dreaming.
Main point would be - Things are about to change. Got lots of things to do. Let's Make It Happen.
PS. lots of dances I want to learn:
SHINee - Ring Ding Dong
SS501 - Love Like This
SNSD - Chocolate Love ?
All for the hell of it.