nothing feels right today ( Read more... )

a behavior to replace a behavior,
she says

then why am I still awake? still obsessing?
worrying if I shouldn't have said
"are you going to have sex with me?"

moral scruples all over the place,
I'm sorry I
Just
Can't
Keep
My
Shirt
On
Anymore.

I just want a balance between him
and everyone else

how the fuck do I
make out with him
hang out with him
and not be bothered ( Read more... )

words, repeated so often that their meaning is lost;
buried beneath convolution and convulsions,
the illness of mistrust,
the vomiting of insignificant idioms
the sickness of never-understanding
because-understanding-others-requires-an-understanding-of-self.

sadness pulls me deep this evening/morning
into the mind and hearts and lost souls of despair;
only ( Read more... )

a course devoted to asking the right questions promises only the surest form of deception ( Read more... )

today, I am magnetic. or something ( Read more... )

fuck every passive-aggressive statement ( Read more... )

I can't clean up any of the areas of my life ( Read more... )

my contacts list increases
strangers respond to new ads but
I don't want to talk to them.
I read their secrets, but
they're just meant as ways to impress me. or to get me horny.
I save them in my contacts so I won't contact them by accident in the future.
no more "oops"

oops.

my smoochy-face, he's gone. camping. whatever. good. glad he's gone. but he'll ( Read more... )

it's. still. raining.

still.

I've noticed that my hands seem more wrinkly than other peoples'.
that's silly right?
but seriously. little bunches of wrinkles at every bending point
in my palm.

maybe I clench my hands into fists more than other people?

DOES THIS MEAN MY HANDS WON'T BE YOUTHFU
L FOR LONG?

absurd.

I've always had a hard time with my hands.
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