Ho Hum. Hoe Hum? Hmm Hmm.
This post comes from a need to just talk. About anything, about nothing really. Just talk.
Warning, things could get rambly.
Let's see. Guess I'll start with saying that there has not been much going on around here lately, now that my watercolor class is over. I've been looking for more things to do in the city but so far not much luck. Either it doesn't interest me or they just don't have what I'm interested in. Recently the few people who know I know ballroom have said I should start a class, but I kinda need a partner for the lead stuff and more practice myself before I'm willing to tackle that. Maybe something will come up now that spring seems to finally be showing up.
That leads to the next thing that's been on my mind lately. The impending end of my work contract. May 9th isn't far away, and it seems to be coming too fast. That brings worries about what's coming next. I'm worried about finding a new job, where I'll be, what to do if I don't find one, things like that. It gets to be a lot and I don't often say it but sometimes it scares me to think that after this things might not turn out well. Not for a while at least. But at the same time, it could be a good thing. Maybe I'll get a new job right away, fingers crossed for the phone call on Friday, maybe I won't but the break might be welcome. I could travel somewhere I want, not where my family is going because it's convenient. I could go home and start helping Dad on the farm more, not a bad thing, though I kinda want more time before that happens.
We'll see how it goes I guess.
What else, what else....
Well, when it comes to artsy stuff, I've been feeling drained lately I used to sketch at least once or twice a week, if not more, but lately I can barely get a drawing per month done. I don't know if this is just artist's block or because I genuinely have been uninspired. It may seem trivial, but it bothers me to think I'm not burning through the sketchbooks. I have been trying to work on actually shading the sketches I do complete, and that takes more time, but I believe I could be making more than one at a time, if ideas would just come.
Maybe creative writing will bring the ideas back. I get lots of ideas when my mind wanders at work, especially while I work in the fume hood plating isolates(very tedious, mind-numbing work I might add), but I never remember them unless I write the ideas down. I can't exactly stop in the middle of what I'm doing to keep making notes though. I could ask for ideas, but not everyone has ideas right away.
Which brings me to a talk I had with a co-worker somewhat recently. We started with books and somehow it got to writing and I made mention of some of my characters. I enjoyed it because she showed valid interest as I laid out my Robeson clan. When I brushed off explaining one character's story by staying brief and moving on to another, she pulled a 'Wait, but what about...?'. I have to admit I was amused to see her sympathizing with one of my own characters, even going so far as to suggest what I should do next to make their future a little happier. It was nice to hear.
I think that's at least some of the stuff that's been on my mind. It's nice to get it out in some form.