Veil
Sitting in front of the veil,
I am shielded from that which I do not want to see.
Shielded from facing the reality of what is.
Reality that brought me right here to where I am today.
And yet, it is only a veil…
I can see right through it if I focus just enough.
I can see.
I know it’s there.
It’s just that, well…
I like that veil.
Although it is thin, I can feel its warmth.
It protects me, keeps me safe…
Doesn’t it?
No.
I heard a quote just now,
“The frightening woman whose fear ate her sanity.”
I know that I was sane once upon a time, I swear I was.
I have just let my fear take over and control me,
Thereby leaving me, well…
A frightening woman.
I’m not all that frightening really.
I just need some time and maybe a little strong encouragement from those who know and love me best.
Some encouragement to actually force myself to look directly at that veil,
Through the veil.
Perhaps even reach out my hand and part it, allowing myself to see things clearly for the first time ever.
Then, the scariest part of all…
To walk through it.
Who will be there on the other side?
Can I make it?
I am positive that I can, I just need to move past the fear and put it just where it belongs, in the past.
I am shielded from that which I do not want to see.
Shielded from facing the reality of what is.
Reality that brought me right here to where I am today.
And yet, it is only a veil…
I can see right through it if I focus just enough.
I can see.
I know it’s there.
It’s just that, well…
I like that veil.
Although it is thin, I can feel its warmth.
It protects me, keeps me safe…
Doesn’t it?
No.
I heard a quote just now,
“The frightening woman whose fear ate her sanity.”
I know that I was sane once upon a time, I swear I was.
I have just let my fear take over and control me,
Thereby leaving me, well…
A frightening woman.
I’m not all that frightening really.
I just need some time and maybe a little strong encouragement from those who know and love me best.
Some encouragement to actually force myself to look directly at that veil,
Through the veil.
Perhaps even reach out my hand and part it, allowing myself to see things clearly for the first time ever.
Then, the scariest part of all…
To walk through it.
Who will be there on the other side?
Can I make it?
I am positive that I can, I just need to move past the fear and put it just where it belongs, in the past.