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I'm writing this barred out so my emotions maybe a little out of sync
i wonder if i am doing the wrong thing . I really want something out of this new guy im seeing but i strongly doubt anything will come from it . I want to be friends , hes a gentlemen and fun to be around but im afraid the attraction to him is based on nothing more than his looks , the sexual passion. Not that we dont talk about anything else and yes i initiate most of the sex, hes not using me anymore than i am using him . Why else would i show up to his house in skimpy clothes. but i feel he feels the same way about me. I like him i do alot. but i know the logical answer would be to slowly back away.
our 7yr age gap makes it hard for me to think to things to entertain him , then im always worried that my immaturity will turn him off ( as i sure it will)and im to the point where it hurts me to hear that he flirts with other girls (thought i shouldn't be )he is not my man , as far as i know , he doesnt want labels "boyfriend girlfriend"
i had wish i had meet him when i was older a more qualified girlfriend to suit his intellectual needs. i know that my crazy antics will drive him away
but go with the flow like i always say the ride is fun ... endings always suck though
i wonder if i am doing the wrong thing . I really want something out of this new guy im seeing but i strongly doubt anything will come from it . I want to be friends , hes a gentlemen and fun to be around but im afraid the attraction to him is based on nothing more than his looks , the sexual passion. Not that we dont talk about anything else and yes i initiate most of the sex, hes not using me anymore than i am using him . Why else would i show up to his house in skimpy clothes. but i feel he feels the same way about me. I like him i do alot. but i know the logical answer would be to slowly back away.
our 7yr age gap makes it hard for me to think to things to entertain him , then im always worried that my immaturity will turn him off ( as i sure it will)and im to the point where it hurts me to hear that he flirts with other girls (thought i shouldn't be )he is not my man , as far as i know , he doesnt want labels "boyfriend girlfriend"
i had wish i had meet him when i was older a more qualified girlfriend to suit his intellectual needs. i know that my crazy antics will drive him away
but go with the flow like i always say the ride is fun ... endings always suck though