i loved this journal ( Read more... )

so.... as most people do when life gets to hetic
they start over
and that is what i am doing
atleast electronically
and with my social circle
if you are interested in being added to my new journal
please comment
if not oh well
ill delete this account as soon as i get the people
and communities i want off of it

im going to make a new journal under a new name
i have to start over
i will add back those who i want
i am sorry
i can not take the drama

im really really hurt in general ( Read more... )

im sick of my self i am not eating for the next couple of days except for liquids till i lose all this stupid fat ive gained

oh yes and i will get bars today some how ...........
i dont care how crazy they make me , they make me forget and not eat

i fucked up again and gained back all the weight i had lost

so back to counting down 5

im acting childish but this time i wont apologize because frankly i do not feel sorry
all of you , those who have abandoned me this past month
you have been erased from my life , all the parts that are tangible 
in my heart some residue remains but on the outside , you no longer exist 
not just one  person
but all of you 
(I still have a soft spot ( Read more... )

God and life teaches you to treat others how you want to be treated ( Read more... )

im really hurt you son of a bitch

you are selfishness in human form

i dont know if i should stop waiting ( Read more... )