if been thinking alot latey
maybe a bit too much. but i wonder why i get up in the morning, and why i keep going. and i found that reason is hope. the hope that eventually everything will be better, the hope that one day i will find meaning for the word love. i was talking with a friend today and we stumbled upon a fundamental question that i think that everyone needs to be able to answer for themselves to be able to understand themselves. what do you run from? what to you fear so much in life that you run from? i'm not talking spiders or bogeymen. what within you scares you so much that you won't even think about it. i'm curious as to what others run from. personally, i've found that i run from myself. i'm afraid to be myself for fear that i will no longer be liked. i also fear happiness to the point that i can't take a chance in any situation that could lead to my happiness that has the possibilty of me being rejected. so if you feel up to it, if you can look inside yourself and find it, i'd be interested in what you run from. i find that that is a very difficult question to ask myself, and i would assume its hard for you as well. but i think it's best if we know what we fear, to know what we run from and why. i'm not posing the question just to get inside your head, i want you to get inside your own head. to know yourself and what scares you the most is the only way to know how to change yourself and improve your life.