happy belated valentines day...
i was the most happiest girl in the world proceeding my career to a higher position. everything was going great. and none the less it was dade county public schools. i was soooooo excited and i couldnt stop talking about it. they told me to put it my two weeks notice at montessori and without hesitating i was on a roll... throwing away everything for this new job that was supposed to be great for me. ive been training a new girl and everything... sounds great doesnt it?
yesterday i get a phone call from the school that accepted me. Jack D. Gordon. me thinking they would tell me i start monday, she tells me that they dont need me and that they will keep me in my mind. and that was that. all my hopes crushed from one minute to the next. it felt as if i lost everything. my life was turned upside down. so many things ran through my head. i was speechless and felt lifeless... i gave up my secure job for what i thought was excellence. how the fuck can dade county public schools make u give in ur two weeks notice and halfway into the 2nd week say they dont need you? i felt as if i had lost everything... where do i go from here i asked myself? my boss let me go yesterday... i ended up at the school i attended my elementary years, the school that ive been wanting to teach at for such a great time, the school that fucked me over. i talked to the lady and asked her to tell me in detail what had gone wrong? as of monday i dont have a job! i was outraged and furious. i talked to her calmly and she felt bad... damn right she better feel bad cause i was doing fine. making my money, having job security, and then BAM i lose everything. she called every elementary school she knew. i appreciated it greatly, but if i wanted to work somewhere else i would have gone and applied... so i decided to call the school board today... they werent too happy. they were pretty pissed as well as me. maybe even more. all i wanted was a job... so it started this whole new trend and i decided to let my mom handle it after the horrible weekend i had. i ended up at montessori to pick up my check and say my goodbyes. it was easy until... this little girl named caitlyn the most beautiful/loving child on this planet began to cry as she drew me a picture... i broke out in tears... i thought of how selfish i had been wanting to leave that job. i loved that job and the people there. but the kids... those kids were a part of me. whatever happened to them, i felt their pain. whatever bothered them, bothered me. and caitlyn, i adored her. she has the longest hair and at the moment when i had walked in i didnt tell my class i was leaving cause i knew it would be hard for me, but before she even knew she had brought her brush for me to comb her hair. this was our daily bonding time. and i was just crushed. i ended up crying while brushing her hair and waited for everyone to finish their drawings for me... i was sooo heart broken. it was hard. probably the most hardest things ive had to deal with in my life. i didnt think it would affect them that much or even me for that matter. people come and go, and plus they are kids... but i realised kids are people too. i didnt end up leaving until 2 pm when the lady from Jack D. Gordon called me telling me i had an interview at village green elementary school. i went... and they accepted me. yes i am grateful, but im just completely torn right now. this has been a long day, and lets see how this all turns out. hopefully when they start hiring at Jack D. Gordon, they will transfer me. but until then i will work with what i have and make the best of it. im going to miss montessori for sure. i loved that school and i love those kids with all my heart. i felt so loved when i saw those kids crying for me. i didnt want to leave. but what is done has been done, and theres no going back and erasing/changing anything. i have total faith in god and if village green is where he wants me, then thats where ill be. i know something great with come out of this i just have to be patient, and i have plenty of patience.
*i believe everything happens for a reason*
yesterday i get a phone call from the school that accepted me. Jack D. Gordon. me thinking they would tell me i start monday, she tells me that they dont need me and that they will keep me in my mind. and that was that. all my hopes crushed from one minute to the next. it felt as if i lost everything. my life was turned upside down. so many things ran through my head. i was speechless and felt lifeless... i gave up my secure job for what i thought was excellence. how the fuck can dade county public schools make u give in ur two weeks notice and halfway into the 2nd week say they dont need you? i felt as if i had lost everything... where do i go from here i asked myself? my boss let me go yesterday... i ended up at the school i attended my elementary years, the school that ive been wanting to teach at for such a great time, the school that fucked me over. i talked to the lady and asked her to tell me in detail what had gone wrong? as of monday i dont have a job! i was outraged and furious. i talked to her calmly and she felt bad... damn right she better feel bad cause i was doing fine. making my money, having job security, and then BAM i lose everything. she called every elementary school she knew. i appreciated it greatly, but if i wanted to work somewhere else i would have gone and applied... so i decided to call the school board today... they werent too happy. they were pretty pissed as well as me. maybe even more. all i wanted was a job... so it started this whole new trend and i decided to let my mom handle it after the horrible weekend i had. i ended up at montessori to pick up my check and say my goodbyes. it was easy until... this little girl named caitlyn the most beautiful/loving child on this planet began to cry as she drew me a picture... i broke out in tears... i thought of how selfish i had been wanting to leave that job. i loved that job and the people there. but the kids... those kids were a part of me. whatever happened to them, i felt their pain. whatever bothered them, bothered me. and caitlyn, i adored her. she has the longest hair and at the moment when i had walked in i didnt tell my class i was leaving cause i knew it would be hard for me, but before she even knew she had brought her brush for me to comb her hair. this was our daily bonding time. and i was just crushed. i ended up crying while brushing her hair and waited for everyone to finish their drawings for me... i was sooo heart broken. it was hard. probably the most hardest things ive had to deal with in my life. i didnt think it would affect them that much or even me for that matter. people come and go, and plus they are kids... but i realised kids are people too. i didnt end up leaving until 2 pm when the lady from Jack D. Gordon called me telling me i had an interview at village green elementary school. i went... and they accepted me. yes i am grateful, but im just completely torn right now. this has been a long day, and lets see how this all turns out. hopefully when they start hiring at Jack D. Gordon, they will transfer me. but until then i will work with what i have and make the best of it. im going to miss montessori for sure. i loved that school and i love those kids with all my heart. i felt so loved when i saw those kids crying for me. i didnt want to leave. but what is done has been done, and theres no going back and erasing/changing anything. i have total faith in god and if village green is where he wants me, then thats where ill be. i know something great with come out of this i just have to be patient, and i have plenty of patience.
*i believe everything happens for a reason*