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Hey you! Yes, you, Narci, the one believing yourself to be the center of everything 'cause you can't see anyone but yourself.  I'd recognize that swollen, grotesque ego of yours anywhere, though I admit you look pretty spiffy tonight, except for all the lies ( Read more... )

Family secrets and skeletons don't just cause me unnecessary shame and guilt ( after all, it's not my skeleton rattling noisily from generations ago, or my skeletons that live in my exN's, ) they have caused me paranoia. Damn it's perverted to expect a child to protect and maintain the Secrets and Skeletons in order to remain a member, or punish ( Read more... )

Just as the Universe is constantly expanding and shrinking, creating and destroying, pulling together and pushing apart, I find myself having to do the same thing with my life and belief constructs. Very little was as it appeared to be at the time I experienced it. My perceptions are changing as my own little "lens" adjusts to new realizations ( Read more... )

     Rain in my lovely state yesterday and this morning have led me to posting a "for me only" journal post where I, for the first time, set down all the lies I have discovered from my last ex-N "friend". Which, of course, led me to looking at all the lies from all of them, and the lies I have told myself. It's mind-boggling. The main lie from them ( Read more... )

     Sleep is apparently not an option right now so I thought I'd explain my journal's title of "Farther Along". "Farther Along" was Mamafield's (maternal grandmother) favorite hymn, and I fondly remember her banging it out on her old piano on hot summer days when I would visit her in rural Alabama as a child. If you're not familiar with it, I will ( Read more... )