4145...380...whats next?
memories of my life here are starting to get to me. knowing i will be leaving the only place i know is such a heavy weight on my heart. i love this place. from the first day we got here, we moved into a condo until we got our house, the house i grew up in. from 4 to 16. i remember playing in the pond in the backyard our first day there. catching frogs and putting them in buckets, and going to see them the next day and they were gone. learning how to ride my bike without training wheels, in the backyard. we got cherokee i dont even think we were living there a year yet. my first dog. i remember the night dad brought her home. stephanie and i were sitting on the love seat eating cinammon rolls from cinnabon and cherokee just crapped all over the floor...we didnt want those cinammon rolls anymore. i love and miss cherokee so much. she ran away one time and i remember dad going on his bike all over trying to find her, and when he brought her home i was so happy. than we got tecate. i miss her too because we got rid of her not because she was dying but because she wasnt getting along with capone. its sad to think that someone else is housing her, taking care of her. shes sleeping on someone elses pillow every night, and curling up with them when they cry. i miss her so much, even though she was only a little orange cat. she got out one time too, and got into a fight with the neighbors cat, i was so worried. but again, one of my parents saved the day. so many things...building up the pool in the backyard every summer, i have a scar on my left ankle from doing it. the summer it collapsed and the water carried me all the way into the woods. hanging out with the neighbors playing endless hours of goldeneye on n64. mom making us pitcher after pitcher of kool-aid. we moved out of that house when i was a sophomore, and moved in to the house we are in now, which has been such a burden to us...took forever to get into it, had SO many problems when we finally got into it, and now we cant get rid of it. its a huge burden. im so sad to leave this place. ill be back though. maybe a change of scenery is what i need to help get my life going on a better pathway. ill be back.