time continuously changes, so why the fuck can't i change the little things i want to? i wind up running in the same circles, repeating past mistakes until i turn blue in the face. i start talking to my exfiancee, we fight, talk like normal again. same fucking circles. rar. i don't know. i want to change these little things, and i need to change

10 days until yule. 10 days until rebirth and the coming of the sun. and for once i actually can't wait. the past three years have been nothing but a blur for me, not in the drunken haze blur, just a blur. i mean yeah, there have been the good times, but this past samhain was really the death of the old me. just 12 days after, i moved out of my ( Read more... )

i'm up at school, faced with a personal quandry. i've decided i'm going to be more self centered and bitchy. but the personal quandry isn't anything to do with being self-centered. i'm done trying to be perfect for everyone else. i'm just going to be me. so don't try to tell me i should be different. i want to figure out where i'm at. and i want to ( Read more... )

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