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ok so random. ive been a lil sick. i have a chest cold or something. i went to bed early tonight cuz my daytime medicine was makin me sleepy?! i dont see where that happns... plus on top of that i smoked n drank a little. period, im knocked out. my phone ringing non-stop and its a private caller. all this happening from 2:30 till 4:30. im thinkin its the fucker that called last night bein weird. but i wasn't....but RAUL REYES.... the boy called 6 times.
hey buddy where ya been! He's in and out. locked up n shit. then he comes talkin all this shit. same stuff "I've been chasing you for years now. Just gimmie a chance. Im in love with you. I always have been. " blah blah blah. yeah that was eventful. oh and this is the kicker " I want you to be my wife. I wanna settle down n have tons of baby girls with you".... that wont work. i want boys lol.
neways. Jes's Birthday was on the 5th and I had a blast! we went to mad bars just chillin. my fav was off the wall. i think i wanna start goin in there... random nights i think. some shocking news revealed at the end of the night. and i dunno how i feel about that. i kno im upset jes is hurt so bad. this shit was shocking as hell.i love u jes.<3
ive talked to yoyo a few times. i cant comment on that yet. im not sure whats going on. i saw her and it was like all the good times we had flashed in front of me. she was glowing. so beautiful. but yeah no comment on that yet.
today i got my hair done. and went out to dinner. lea paid. wow. first time ever. in life. the whole time i was at dinner, i was thinking of her. and i need to stop. i think i can controll myself tho. i really think ill be ok this round. feelings are feelings.they come and go. i have control. i just have to keep tellin myself that. lol riight