PA PLayaz
i miss the people who i used to call my friends. i miss lunchtime. i miss dumb fights. i miss ruing the school. i miss jose. i miss rapheal. i miss blake.
Im in cali and have been for the past week, just to collect my thought n really see where i wanna be in life. cali isnt for me. its a great visitation/vaca spot, but not for college or living. but now i see alota shit clearly as to what i would like to do. at this point i would marry jose if i could. and lea too. but thats not allowed. the city is the place for me. the arts is the place for me. i miss the hustle n bustle. the gay life out here is different. alot less trashy. its great. elena eryn n shely got an apt. i dont talk to any of them nemore. i talked to eryn today tho. it was nice to hear updates on how the gang was doing. i might go visit one of these days. i might get a job at a hospital doing dietary. u dont work much n get paid alright. not my ideal job but its something.
its official. my mom is gettin married. i have no feelings on that at all.
i miss my old non complecated life. too much is changing and i absolutly HATE it.
im going shopping now, to try n calm me down.
the room is upside down. i just want it right again.
disregarding mad shit--i love u les,jes,amy,jose,blake,ralf,eryn,elena,jonny, nubian,shay,keith,james.
i just want my life back...