My adorable past
Ooh, my love...
I was meeting today with one guy from my past, while suddenly remembered you.
Suddenly, out of nowhere, I started to feel how much I miss you.
You, my beautiful, my delicate, my one and only, my prince...
Ooh, I don't have words to describe what I feel in you that I love so much...
I so wish you be happy.
I so want to sacrifice myself to make you feel good.
I would do anything.
Anything.
How nice it would be, if I could somehow take out all the pain and despair that's living within your soul, and put the warmness of our sun, and of our Mediterranean sea, and all of my love instead.
And let you hover, fly and swim in the mesmerizing rays of warm light, shining through your body.
And make you somehow remember that feeling.
You never wanted that love and sacrifice from my side. You never thought you are worth it.
But you are.
I feel so bad I didn't hug you before we separated.
That moment, when you get out of car, saying something nice, kinda "thank you" [for the wonderful time together], and I was so cool, just smiling, saying "goodbye" [yeah, of course, any time]...
And in the next moment, you were gone, and I drove away. Away from you.
Stupid, stupid me!
I just had to put armbreak, and run-run-run over to catch you before you gone and hug you tightly!
Feel my love, feel my affection for you!
How I see you, how worthy, beautiful, wonderful you are in my eyes!
How, damn it, can I make you see what it?
I had to hug you! Hug tightly! [and never let go :)]
And say, how much I want you to be happy, how much I love that sad boy that's living inside you, how much I want him to see himself like I see him.
I miss you so much, I love you so much, I want to help you, I...
And I can't believe you are so far away and unreachable...
I send you my love and my hug and my vision of you. Please...
Fuck, it's so difficult to express what I feel!
P.S. Just by chatting with some guy, what's opened in me? What an old feelings these are... It's not me at all! At least, I hope, its' not the present me :))