Life
Well there are a few things to talk about. First of all I want to let everyone know that my dad is doing GREAT. He is seeing a new doctor who has decided that he does NOT have to have another procedure. They are going to treat his blockages with medication and that is a HUGE relief because I just had a bad feeling about the procedure. I didn't really want him to have it so I am very happy that he can avoid it, even if it is only for a little while.
The next thing that I wanted to talk about is John Ryan. He and I have had our ups and downs to say the least but at the end of the day we are there for each other and we love each other. We have been through so much together and sometimes I think that it is hard for other people (or us for that matter) to understand our relationship but at the core we are friends. We were friends before we dated and I thank God every day that we were able to stay friends after everything. I know I complain about him alot and I get frustrated with him but his friendship means the world to me and I feel blessed to have him in my life.
Having said that, he is as we speak in a medically induced coma. He had a tumor on his jaw and they had to remove the lower portion and reconstruct it with bone taken from him leg. The suregery was something like 17 hours long from 7:30 am to 12:00 Midnight and it was a success and he is doing as well as can be expected but due to the nature of the surgery they put him into a coma to allow his body to heal. It is really scary to know that he is laying in a hospital room in a coma (medically or otherwise). He is not much older than me (only like 10 months) and he works out all the time, he eats a hell of a lot better than I do, he doesn't smoke (and didn't for 8 years) and here I am doing just fine, other than a few aches and pains and he is in a coma healing from a 17 hour long surgery.
I know he is going to be okay. I know that this post is kind of pointless and basically a jumble of ramblings but I feel better having said these things.
I don't have many people in my life that I can say I would call no matter what the time and KNOW without a doubt that they will be there for me and move heaven and earth to make me feel better (in their own way) but he is one of those people. When I tell him that something is bothering me he takes it in and remembers it and trys to make an effort to make things better. That means a lot to me. I wish that I could be there for him right now and I am kind of bummed that I couldn't be but there have been too many other things that are going on and I couldn't do it.
I am glad that the both of us kept fighting for our friendship, I am glad that we never let things get so bad that we can't talk to each other anymore, I am glad that Michelle and John and JR and I are still friends. That bond means the world to me. It gets me through all the hard times in my life. When my dad went into the hospital and I was freaking out they were the people I called. The three of them have helped me and saved me more times than I can count and I just hope that they know that and that they know how much I love them.