Comments | sstormwatch: Games People Play: A long story to a short realization.

sstormwatch

Games People Play: A long story to a short realization.

Jan 17, 2009 01:39

I've been musing for a time, days really... about what I want to do about my future. I've not come to any grand ideas or anything like that, but I have come to realize that there are parts of what I am doing now that I don't like so much, and in some cases have wanted to walk away from. ( so here's the long story... )

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sstormwatch January 17 2009, 22:18:31 UTC

Yep, that was the issue... made up points. But I've seen so many people pursue those points with a passion that I could never understand.

And thank you, you are right. The look in my kids eyes every day is a great high for me.

decembertyger January 17 2009, 10:32:16 UTC

*hugs* I am glad at one time those games were in your life so that we could cross paths. I understand the need to walk away. I have been in some club (sometimes many at once) since I was in the womb. Over the last year I have been thinking more and more about not allowing myself to join anything else and maybe even give up some if not all of what I am in. I just feel kind of adrift. Thanks for putting into words what I could not even though it had nothing to do with me hehe it helped me wrap my brain around some concepts that had been floating in my brain lately.

sstormwatch January 17 2009, 22:19:24 UTC

You are welcome, and I am glad to have gotten to know you even better, via LJ.

lorihalia January 17 2009, 12:24:21 UTC

"What I do want to do is to pursue that which interests me, which continues to be Costuming and whatever research or fun activity I feel like doing and, yes, sharing, as I desire."

Oh hun, that's what it's really all about (no matter what game you play). *hugs*

Yes, I want a Laurel someday, but I'm not going to politic for it etc. If it happens, I'll be overjoyed - but if it doesn't, I've still spent all the time playing doing what I absolutely love (and wasting a lotta fabric along the way). ;D

sstormwatch January 17 2009, 22:20:00 UTC

Here's to wasting Lots of Fabric!!

margorose January 17 2009, 15:27:20 UTC

I think you underestimate how much of a Name in costuming you are. When I started looking around for a Tudor expert, I didn't have to look very far to find you.

I've been having much the same thoughts about my own hobbies, with similar outcome. It must be that time of year.

sstormwatch January 17 2009, 22:24:43 UTC

I guess it is that time of year, since I know I tend to introspections in January, as I am trying to figure out what to do with my new year.

As to being a "name"... I guess I've not believed that of my self. Maybe that's a good thing in some ways, so long as my head doesn't swell to incredible proportions. :-D I do appreciate the opportunities you have given me, as it helped me to really delve into this arena of knowledge. Thank you.

dkountz81 January 17 2009, 15:31:36 UTC

I'm sorry to hear about our collective loss after Visalia faire. You will certainly be missed, but it is better that you do what makes you happy than to do something that should be fun, because you feel you should. And I look forward to seeing you at future events! Takn' pictures!

sstormwatch January 17 2009, 22:10:00 UTC

I hope to still be around, but faire just isn't what it once was for me, and I think at this point what faire is, and where I want to go, are in two different directions. I would rather come and enjoy the people involved, and help as I can, then feel it is an obligation hung around my neck.