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You know, I generally tend to think of myself as a well-dispositioned, cheery person. I can usually find something to be happy about.
But right now? Right now I'm pissed. Ever since summer started, I've been trying to find a job. As of 6:00 PM on June 11, 2007 (that's right now), I have turned in ten job applications. As of 6:01 PM on June 11, 2007 (that's right now as well), I have heard nothing back. I've done follow-ups to see if they've gotten my applications. I've made a small bother of myself- for nothing. All I want is a job: something to do during the day, something to bring in a little bit of money. If that's too much to ask, please, someone tell me so I can stop getting my hopes up.
Also, the situation with Boy is getting no better. The last time I had an honest-to-God conversation with him was last Sunday. I've called him several times and even left a voice mail or two, but to no avail. Nothing back. I'm worried, because last week we talked about the wreck (it's still bothering him a lot) and how's he's working a lot to earn money to get another car. I'm trying to be understanding, but this is getting ridiculous- a whole god damn week. If he were to call right now, I don't know what I'd do. Answering the phone would seem like the logical thing to do, but I doubt I would. I'd watch it ring. Maybe yell at it a bit, and call him back when I've gotten that out of my system. Not that I won't have a few words with him, but I think it'd be best to blow off a bit of steam first.
I guess I'm just frustrated because I feel like I'm at a dead end. I'm trying to get things done, but no one is reciprocating. So yeah, no amusing entry about journals this time; only whiny bitching because I'm not getting what I want. D:
But right now? Right now I'm pissed. Ever since summer started, I've been trying to find a job. As of 6:00 PM on June 11, 2007 (that's right now), I have turned in ten job applications. As of 6:01 PM on June 11, 2007 (that's right now as well), I have heard nothing back. I've done follow-ups to see if they've gotten my applications. I've made a small bother of myself- for nothing. All I want is a job: something to do during the day, something to bring in a little bit of money. If that's too much to ask, please, someone tell me so I can stop getting my hopes up.
Also, the situation with Boy is getting no better. The last time I had an honest-to-God conversation with him was last Sunday. I've called him several times and even left a voice mail or two, but to no avail. Nothing back. I'm worried, because last week we talked about the wreck (it's still bothering him a lot) and how's he's working a lot to earn money to get another car. I'm trying to be understanding, but this is getting ridiculous- a whole god damn week. If he were to call right now, I don't know what I'd do. Answering the phone would seem like the logical thing to do, but I doubt I would. I'd watch it ring. Maybe yell at it a bit, and call him back when I've gotten that out of my system. Not that I won't have a few words with him, but I think it'd be best to blow off a bit of steam first.
I guess I'm just frustrated because I feel like I'm at a dead end. I'm trying to get things done, but no one is reciprocating. So yeah, no amusing entry about journals this time; only whiny bitching because I'm not getting what I want. D: