Their First Time (3/6)
Title: Their First Time.
Categories: Dean/Sam > Overall Series.
Characters: Dean, Sam, Other.
Rated: NC-17.
Genres: Angst, Drama, Established Relationship, First Time, Hurt & Comfort, Romance.
Warnings: Abuse, Rape/ Non-con.
Beta'd by: deansgirl84
Series: None.
Chapters: 6.
Completed: Yes.
Word count: 10850.
Summary: One night after their regular hunt, Sam accidentally witnesses his brother, Dean, releaving himself, but one thing he cannot understand that his brother said his name while getting off. Will Sam be able to forget it or will the thing that Dean did lead them to a new kind of relationship between the brothers?
Chapter 3 - I'm Sorry, I Love You
Sam wakes up in the morning with a terrible hang over. His head hurts like hell. As he sees Dean is already awake and having breakfast at the table, he’s trying to remember what happened last night before he got too drunk.
“Rise and shine, Sammy,” Dean smiles at him.
Sam feels like last night was a wild dream. He feels someone kissing his lips passionately; caressing his face and hair, sucking his neck hard and touching his chest. He admits that he likes it, that’s why he also moans in his dream. But then he remembers that he was waiting for Dean to get conscious that day. How he feels so guilty about what happened to Dean and that’s why he drank so much.
“Dean…” Sam calls him in a weak voice.
“Yeah, what’s up?” Dean answers as he turns his head in Sam’s direction.
Sam tries to walk to the table, but his hang over makes him lose his balance and he falls down. Dean quickly runs to help his brother.
“Sam, are you okay?” he asks worriedly.
Sam looks him in the eyes, causing his heart to skip a beat.
“No Dean … Are YOU okay?” Sam asks worriedly, too.
“I’m okay Sammy… I’m a hundred percent fine! What’s the matter?”
Sam exhales, “You saved my life yesterday… You got hurt because of me. I … I’m so sorry, Dean…”
“Don’t be, Sam! It’s my job, my responsibility to protect you…”
Sam can’t describe the way he’s feeling, so he hugs Dean tightly then.
“I love you, man!”
Dean blushes in his hug also because Sam said that words again.
“Okay Sam, I love you too... Now get up and take shower man, you smell bad…” Dean grins.
Sam nods and lets Dean go.
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The sun is brightly shinning that day and Dean decides to wash the impala while Sam is out buying some food at the store. Dean actually asked whether Sam wanna go with the car, but he chose the bus over impala. But, maybe it’s the better way, so Dean can take care of his other baby.
Sam doesn’t know what to buy. He finally decides to buy some vegetables , bread and meat. He’s planning to make Dean’s favorite food, a bacon cheese burger. Sam grabs what he needs , pays and takes the bus to go back to the motel. As he gets back from shopping, Sam sees a man with a naked chest, wearing only jeans, stand up in front of the room. It’s Dean; he’s washing the impala. Sam doesn’t know why his heart is pounding hard inside his chest when he sees Dean’s figure. At the sight of his brother’s body. Dean’s face, his broad chest, his arms, his flat stomach that ’s sweating from the sun’s heat. Sam doesn’t know how to describe the scene, except he’s HOT and SEXY!
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“Today’s hot, huh Sam?”
Dean’s already taken a bath after washing his car. He’s sitting at the edge of his bed drying his hair with a towel.
“Yeah…” Sam answers as he starts to make the food at the table.
Dean’s stomach growls loud when he smells the bread.
“God, I’m starving! What do you have for me, Sammy?”
“Nah, nothing special, just something simple…”
“What is it?”
“Burgers …”
“That’s great! Burgers are my favorite!”
Dean walks to the table to see his younger brother make the food. Sam is cutting the bread with a knife and he’s surprised to see Dean is still naked; he’s not even wearing a towel to cover his lower body. Sam accidentally cuts his finger because of the nude scene of his brother.
“Damn!” Sam growls, holding his cut finger.
“Christ, Sammy, are you alright?” Dean ask worriedly, taking his brother’s hand to see the wound. It’s quite deep and bleeding.
“I’m okay, Dean, it’s just a little cut,” Sam answers as he tries to pull his hand from Dean’s .
Dean holds it still and suddenly sucks it. He took Sam by surprise.
“Dean!” Sam’s body starts to shiver.
Dean sucks it gently to stop the bleeding. It was his intention at first, but then when he feels Sam’s body is shivering, he’s lost.
“Dean stop!” Sam tries to protest.
Dean doesn’t listen to his younger brother’s protest; he keeps sucking Sam’s finger, but this time harder as he starts to moan in his throat. Sam gulps as he sees Dean’s eyes, the clear pair of jade orbs getting dark with passion and lust. He pulls his hand roughly from Dean’s mouth, forcing Dean to release his finger. Dean stares at him with such a sharp look that it could make any girl scream his name. Sam throws his gaze to another place to avoid those eyes. Suddenly he feels his body being pushed against the wall by the great strength of his brother. Dean presses his body to him, he holds Sam’s face in his hand and brings his face close to brush his lips against Sam’s. Sam’s eyes widen. Dean kisses him hungrily, open mouth. He nibbles Sam’s lower lip and his hand starts to caress Sam’s chest. Sam shouts NO in his mind and tries to break free, but Dean presses his body so hard to him. He can’t do anything while Dean’s lips start sucking his neck and his hand starts to crawl inside his shirt and plays with his nipple. He can feel Dean’s cock is getting hard on his thigh.
“Stop it, Dean…” Sam begs his brother.
Dean growls and moans while he’s kissing and touching Sam. His hand now caresses Sam’s thigh before sliding upwards, pushing inside Sam’s jeans and grabbing his cock. Sam can’t handle it anymore and suddenly he bursts into tears. Dean gasps and stops when he hears Sam is crying. He pulls himself off Sam and his brother falls to the floor. Dean’s consciousness is back; he feels so guilty and so heartbroken as he sees Sam crying on the floor.
“Sam… Sammy, I’m sorry… I… I don’t know what’s gotten into me… I…”
Dean bent over and held Sam’s face, starting to wipe his tears but the younger Winchester pushes him away and puts some distance between them . He looks afraid of his own brother.
“Sam, I’m so sorry… Please, don’t be afraid, I’m not gonna hurt you…”
Sam raises his head to meet Dean’s eyes. His gaze looks so hurt and afraid.
“You already HURT me, Dean…”
Dean feels like he’s just been hit by lightening the moment he hears what Sam says to him. He’s already hurt Sam, his baby brother, the one he always protects, the one he loves so much, more than himself; the one that he would give his life for. He hurt Sam… He really wants cries too, but he holds his tears back. He looks Sam in the eyes tenderly and whispers, “I’m sorry, I swear I’ll never do that again Sammy, ever… I.. I love you, Sam…”
Chapter 4