a long night spent with your most obvious weakness
my daddy is home from the hospital. they did surgery on his knee. it turned out to be a really inflamed case of brushitis(sp?). so they had to give him an operation. but not he is home. he has a permanent IV in his arm and he's got a visiting nurse who comes once a day and calls every 3 hours. his leg is still wrapped up because the incision they made is still open. i wont go into the details of why.but he's home. last night he ate a mexican hot hot pizza with the sliced jalepenos and all. so he's in good spirits and completely normal with the eception of those few things. i'm glad hes home. i could deal with him being in the hospital during nels. i'd worry and theres no reception up there.
last night i watched ghost. i've always meant to. but i have this wierd thing about watching a movie unless i start at the begining. so i finally saw it. it was really good. and i guess i kinda understand why people think patrick swayze is hot. he's still not as hot as josh though. haha.
so now we enter into my week of lasts. after i get back from nels i will have exactly one week in which to find all the people who matter to me and see them. how impossible is this? i'm scared the answer is very. i've literally seen about 5 of my melrose friends all summer. and sarah d is the only one i've seen more than twice. can i see you guys? or have i really lost you now? who's still left? who's already gone?
its my last leaders school too. which is wierd. my perfect little world. and its ending. leaders did something to me. even if it was only psychological. what is life without leaders like? right now i feel like i can handle it. i handle the long stretches. and i think that the best parts of it i will take with me. and i know somehow that those people i wont lose. which is comforting.
so who knows. someone wise once told me that some people onle appear happy or seem like they know what they wasnt superficially. but really they are either just great at faking it, or rolling with the punches. so lets roll.
amisorra,
maddie
"i dont care who you are, where your from, what you did, as long as you love me"
last night i watched ghost. i've always meant to. but i have this wierd thing about watching a movie unless i start at the begining. so i finally saw it. it was really good. and i guess i kinda understand why people think patrick swayze is hot. he's still not as hot as josh though. haha.
so now we enter into my week of lasts. after i get back from nels i will have exactly one week in which to find all the people who matter to me and see them. how impossible is this? i'm scared the answer is very. i've literally seen about 5 of my melrose friends all summer. and sarah d is the only one i've seen more than twice. can i see you guys? or have i really lost you now? who's still left? who's already gone?
its my last leaders school too. which is wierd. my perfect little world. and its ending. leaders did something to me. even if it was only psychological. what is life without leaders like? right now i feel like i can handle it. i handle the long stretches. and i think that the best parts of it i will take with me. and i know somehow that those people i wont lose. which is comforting.
so who knows. someone wise once told me that some people onle appear happy or seem like they know what they wasnt superficially. but really they are either just great at faking it, or rolling with the punches. so lets roll.
amisorra,
maddie
"i dont care who you are, where your from, what you did, as long as you love me"