it sure has been awhile...living in losungeles, or morelike surviving...
hmm, it has been awhile since my last post...i keep telling myself that i want to post positive, happy, fluffy, ok not fluffy, but just floaty high in the sky happy stuff. it sure is tough...
i have to challenge myself more and more these days to b more positive. ever since i have been laid off, which has been about two years ago...but that was two years ago..things should have changed for the better but it hasnt been all that way...
i can say yes, it has been great that i am married and have a one year old son, whom i love all soo much! they r the light souls that keep me going daily and prayers lifted to Christ is what is fueling me these days...
but now i am looked at by society as an outcast, a beatdown, rundown, nothing? i want to quit but know i cant, i cant because that would be entirely selfish and plainly too simple and easy as if i never existed, but i do exist, i have left footprints on this earth and i do have my own 2x2 space on this planet that God has appointed me. i am here, i am present, i have a purpose...
God, i pray that i find that soon cause it sure is getting more and more difficult to breath and look at my existence in the mirror whenever i get up.
i have to get up...help me to trust in You.
help me Dear God to get up, amen.
i have to challenge myself more and more these days to b more positive. ever since i have been laid off, which has been about two years ago...but that was two years ago..things should have changed for the better but it hasnt been all that way...
i can say yes, it has been great that i am married and have a one year old son, whom i love all soo much! they r the light souls that keep me going daily and prayers lifted to Christ is what is fueling me these days...
but now i am looked at by society as an outcast, a beatdown, rundown, nothing? i want to quit but know i cant, i cant because that would be entirely selfish and plainly too simple and easy as if i never existed, but i do exist, i have left footprints on this earth and i do have my own 2x2 space on this planet that God has appointed me. i am here, i am present, i have a purpose...
God, i pray that i find that soon cause it sure is getting more and more difficult to breath and look at my existence in the mirror whenever i get up.
i have to get up...help me to trust in You.
help me Dear God to get up, amen.