n losungeles while driving through all the traffic...i must have said fuck you to my dad more than..
20 times in rage!!! Christ only you can forgive me.
this is the letter to my dad after the incident cuz i feel horrible!
"Hey there dad, March 31, 2014
Sorry, I have been the most rudest son on the planet. When I was cussing you out in the car and dropping ‘f-bombs’ to you in the car, while driving, I did not mean to. I really didn’t, but you angered me to the point of exhaustion and I had to let it out and blow up, though, I was relatively calm this time. Yet, I still said some things I regretted, like stuff about Uncle Jack, kind of. Besides that, I really am sorry…when I was cussing, I was really hurt and broken, where no one, no one understood. Things have happened in my life, where I don’t comprehend, but it’s not for me to understand it all or I would go on with my spoiled ways. I am glad I have suffered or I would do more dumb things, but Christ has always kept me by His side and I know He is there, when I should have been dead a long time ago. But that is the past and my wife, Catherine, soon to be son, due in July, Achilles our dog and myself need to move out with the future and raise the next generation better than my past life, yours, and our ancestry. I pray to our Saviour that He will provide the right career for me so that I can support my family and not live on handouts from the government or borrowing your money that you have worked so hard for, when you should be saving for retirement because social security isn’t going to get you through retirement.
Again, I am sorry in so many ways…so many. You have worked hard all your life ever since the age of 11, and I know it hasn’t been easy with no dad or mom giving you life changing-for-the-better advice, yet, you have managed to live a strong independent life. I pray to Christ that God will bless us, our family, and everyone we come into contact with that we can be a Light from His Divine Word. You have worked tirelessly and strenuously throughout your life to make others happy by providing monetarily what you could not provide at home emotionally. I get it…I get it…but I pray that changes for Angel because she needs your undying love and its not just monetarily love that she wants, she wants you to care about what she has to say. Listen to her words, rather then spewing out your thoughts or your checklist of things you have to say to make it seem like your being a dad for the day. Please, talk to Lulu and fix whatever problem you BOTH have…yes you BOTH, it is not just one persons’ fault. It is you and Lulu’s fault. Just work on fixing that bond between you and Lulu cause Angel is slowly drifting away if you don’t act now…she’s a teenager and smart and will move on with her life to make it better so she thinks without you…even me if I don’t listen to her.
I am sorry dad for being such a constant sinning son. I pray that I could live the typical life of a true Asian son, but my life is anything close to that…I have to work hard in a new way for my family and grow everyday, working on how I can better myself. I am working on loving myself from all the hate inside me cause I don’t know much of love…Yet, I know Christ’s love is eternal and that He cares and I will rely and trust in Him only!
Thanks for you endless support since I was born. You did a great job! Now it is time, I work on the rest…through Christ!"
only the one and true God, Christ our Saviour can forgive me...Amen.
this is the letter to my dad after the incident cuz i feel horrible!
"Hey there dad, March 31, 2014
Sorry, I have been the most rudest son on the planet. When I was cussing you out in the car and dropping ‘f-bombs’ to you in the car, while driving, I did not mean to. I really didn’t, but you angered me to the point of exhaustion and I had to let it out and blow up, though, I was relatively calm this time. Yet, I still said some things I regretted, like stuff about Uncle Jack, kind of. Besides that, I really am sorry…when I was cussing, I was really hurt and broken, where no one, no one understood. Things have happened in my life, where I don’t comprehend, but it’s not for me to understand it all or I would go on with my spoiled ways. I am glad I have suffered or I would do more dumb things, but Christ has always kept me by His side and I know He is there, when I should have been dead a long time ago. But that is the past and my wife, Catherine, soon to be son, due in July, Achilles our dog and myself need to move out with the future and raise the next generation better than my past life, yours, and our ancestry. I pray to our Saviour that He will provide the right career for me so that I can support my family and not live on handouts from the government or borrowing your money that you have worked so hard for, when you should be saving for retirement because social security isn’t going to get you through retirement.
Again, I am sorry in so many ways…so many. You have worked hard all your life ever since the age of 11, and I know it hasn’t been easy with no dad or mom giving you life changing-for-the-better advice, yet, you have managed to live a strong independent life. I pray to Christ that God will bless us, our family, and everyone we come into contact with that we can be a Light from His Divine Word. You have worked tirelessly and strenuously throughout your life to make others happy by providing monetarily what you could not provide at home emotionally. I get it…I get it…but I pray that changes for Angel because she needs your undying love and its not just monetarily love that she wants, she wants you to care about what she has to say. Listen to her words, rather then spewing out your thoughts or your checklist of things you have to say to make it seem like your being a dad for the day. Please, talk to Lulu and fix whatever problem you BOTH have…yes you BOTH, it is not just one persons’ fault. It is you and Lulu’s fault. Just work on fixing that bond between you and Lulu cause Angel is slowly drifting away if you don’t act now…she’s a teenager and smart and will move on with her life to make it better so she thinks without you…even me if I don’t listen to her.
I am sorry dad for being such a constant sinning son. I pray that I could live the typical life of a true Asian son, but my life is anything close to that…I have to work hard in a new way for my family and grow everyday, working on how I can better myself. I am working on loving myself from all the hate inside me cause I don’t know much of love…Yet, I know Christ’s love is eternal and that He cares and I will rely and trust in Him only!
Thanks for you endless support since I was born. You did a great job! Now it is time, I work on the rest…through Christ!"
only the one and true God, Christ our Saviour can forgive me...Amen.