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Too many people are leaving too soon. Margaret is leaving too soon. It's going to be pretty intense for a bit while she's gone. She'll visit a lot, but there's this safety I've built with her that is fucking terrifying to just have disappear for a couple weeks at a time. Maybe she'll come down every (other?) weekend? Maybe I'm idealistic? Idealism feels really good sometimes.
I don't know if I've ever felt this helpless about a situation before. I never thought that a long distance relationship could work until this. I'm scared of seperation. I'm scared it will be difficult. I'm scared that it won't work out. I'm scared as fucking hell that I'll lose this girl that makes me feel like the world is fucking perfect when she's around. I'm fucking scared to lose this intimacy. Nothing has ever hit me this hard.
I don't know if I've ever felt this helpless about a situation before. I never thought that a long distance relationship could work until this. I'm scared of seperation. I'm scared it will be difficult. I'm scared that it won't work out. I'm scared as fucking hell that I'll lose this girl that makes me feel like the world is fucking perfect when she's around. I'm fucking scared to lose this intimacy. Nothing has ever hit me this hard.