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Margaret left yesterday. We hung out till 6:30 Thursday morning by getting "stuck" in storms. I don't think I can really make a livejournal entry about this that will ever be able to sum up or really give an accurate description of my feelings now. I'm not trying to just be dramatic and shit, it's just that this feeling (love) I have now isn't really a wordy feeling but I'll try to explain it. I know that all my expectations of love have changed. I never really wanted to try a college/longdistance thing again until now. I want to wait for her and I feel like she wants to wait for me. I never wanted to talk about getting married or consider it seriously in the nearer future until now. Right now, I want to spend my life with Margaret no matter how naive that idea may be at this moment. Naivety is a joke when it comes to this emotion.
When Margaret and I are holding each other, it sometimes feels like our hearts are beating through our bodies in a circle. Sometimes I feel like no one else exists besides her and I. I think Margaret is the most beautiful thing I see or can even imagine. I think Margaret Jean Brichant is perfect.
I wish I could write something about this subject without it sounding like I'm an idealistic youth who's obsessed with his partner. Maybe it's because I am. Idealism is synonymous to hope and optimism, and obessed is to love.
-"Just relax, everything's chill... what the fuck?", first acid in in the car
-"Hold my hand", first roll at Aron's
-"Want to have a summer thing?", Third roll at Katie's
-Watching TV in my room and smoking almost every day
-Hanging out for the entire day for the entire summer of 06'. One day spent apart when we were both in Atlanta since we started dating.
-Dropping, intimacy in the hallway, playing with the kittens, face on the toilet "that's a little much", we're on the same wave, talking non-stop till the next day
-Brendan Benson's "What I'm Looking For"
-Drinking with TJ, and talking about Stalin living up to Marxist ideology for four hours? (maybe drugs do make you stupid)
-Analyzing everyone at parties.
-Fucking parties.
-Ike, r.i.p
-"I guess you learn something new every day!"
-"What's up?" "Oh you know... just hanging out"
-Eating chocolate and getting high
-Stoner. (I'm just playing, you're a reefer MJB)
-Tripping at Green Sprout
-Green Sprout, "Ordering something new huh?"
-Audrey + Seth.
I want to talk to you so we can think of everything we've done together. I usually don't make lists like this, but I don't want to forget.
When Margaret and I are holding each other, it sometimes feels like our hearts are beating through our bodies in a circle. Sometimes I feel like no one else exists besides her and I. I think Margaret is the most beautiful thing I see or can even imagine. I think Margaret Jean Brichant is perfect.
I wish I could write something about this subject without it sounding like I'm an idealistic youth who's obsessed with his partner. Maybe it's because I am. Idealism is synonymous to hope and optimism, and obessed is to love.
-"Just relax, everything's chill... what the fuck?", first acid in in the car
-"Hold my hand", first roll at Aron's
-"Want to have a summer thing?", Third roll at Katie's
-Watching TV in my room and smoking almost every day
-Hanging out for the entire day for the entire summer of 06'. One day spent apart when we were both in Atlanta since we started dating.
-Dropping, intimacy in the hallway, playing with the kittens, face on the toilet "that's a little much", we're on the same wave, talking non-stop till the next day
-Brendan Benson's "What I'm Looking For"
-Drinking with TJ, and talking about Stalin living up to Marxist ideology for four hours? (maybe drugs do make you stupid)
-Analyzing everyone at parties.
-Fucking parties.
-Ike, r.i.p
-"I guess you learn something new every day!"
-"What's up?" "Oh you know... just hanging out"
-Eating chocolate and getting high
-Stoner. (I'm just playing, you're a reefer MJB)
-Tripping at Green Sprout
-Green Sprout, "Ordering something new huh?"
-Audrey + Seth.
I want to talk to you so we can think of everything we've done together. I usually don't make lists like this, but I don't want to forget.