Yay for a fun weekend with a close friend and family.
I don't think I've had such a fun and relaxing weekend since, well, a long time? It almost feels like I transplanted myself into another world for three days. I've had fun recently, like spending time with Pippen at GMC last weekend, but this one was just special. I guess it was the fact that it was less of a "lets party and go crazy" type fun, not to say that we didn't joke around and be a little weird, but a majority of the stuff we did was just really relaxing for me. There were of course a few moments that weren't so good, like me being stupid and reverting to an old way of dealing with my emotions, but overall I just feel balanced again.
My head is alot clearer than it was last Friday morning. It'd be nice if I could say that I got rid of a lot of excess thoughts, but I actually didn't. I just was able to figure out a few things that are really bothering me, and now I know what I need to do so that I can move on. Yeah, some of the stuff I need to sit down and do is going to suck big time, and I'm not 100 percent sure that I'm going to be able to do it without breaking down alot, but it's definitly time.
I've been amazed over the last month or so how much I've opened up to SMA (Singing_Music_Angel... sorry hun, I really need a nickname for you). This weekend just blew my mind. I'm so comfortable around her that I don't think twice about just speaking and being me with no walls. I mean, I'm sure that my aunt and cousin think she and I are dating, and I'm not sure but my parents might think that too... and I don't care. We arn't, and it's just nice to have someone that I'm this close to emotionally (and so comfortable around) in my life.
It's nice... I actually feel like I'm worth something after all. Yay for self confidence!
My head is alot clearer than it was last Friday morning. It'd be nice if I could say that I got rid of a lot of excess thoughts, but I actually didn't. I just was able to figure out a few things that are really bothering me, and now I know what I need to do so that I can move on. Yeah, some of the stuff I need to sit down and do is going to suck big time, and I'm not 100 percent sure that I'm going to be able to do it without breaking down alot, but it's definitly time.
I've been amazed over the last month or so how much I've opened up to SMA (Singing_Music_Angel... sorry hun, I really need a nickname for you). This weekend just blew my mind. I'm so comfortable around her that I don't think twice about just speaking and being me with no walls. I mean, I'm sure that my aunt and cousin think she and I are dating, and I'm not sure but my parents might think that too... and I don't care. We arn't, and it's just nice to have someone that I'm this close to emotionally (and so comfortable around) in my life.
It's nice... I actually feel like I'm worth something after all. Yay for self confidence!