Funeral Arrangements
So, I finalized my own funeral arrangements this week. It's kinda morbidly amusing because when I was a teenager I was heavily suicidal and I used to dream of my funeral sometimes. Not like a revenge fantasy thing, but like -
I used to dream of a glorified cardboard box being dropped into a hole and covered, in the dark and sometimes the rain, with no one there. Because that was my life.
My wife and her family will be throwing a memorial after I'm cremated. It's going to be held at my brother-in-law's place because her whole family and all of our friends will be there and we need the space that his ranch provides for everyone.
There's going to be enough people at my memorial that we need a huge backyard to fill them, I just. By the norns...
My wife and her best friend have just finished making the ceramic container that my ashes will be held in and it's a beautiful piece, when they showed it to me I was very moved and very happy that I'll be put into something so beautiful.
I can't even imagine having to make something like that for Hiromi, my wife. I just am constantly amazed by her strength and love, for me, just...by all the gods, I love her so much.
I love you so much, Hiromi.