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I really feel self destructive right now. I just want to go and eat a huge plate of nachos. I was fine until my guy called me. He was in a crappy mood and didn't get to sleep last night and called me to blow off steam but ended up hurting my feelings. I didn't say anything because I knew he was tired and cranky that was what was talking and not him. He called me back to apologize - I don't know how he knew I was hurt though as I hadn't said anything. I guess I just must get really quiet and not know it. I told him I thought he was tired and that was why I didn't yell at him, but I am sick of this whole fucking deal. I need to get out of this situation. At least that is how I feel right now this second. If he was here I will tell him to get lost. But then what will I want tomorrow? Probably just to see him so it isn't even worth the drama.