story book life
i finished reading this book, which btw every person in the whole world should read. but anyways, it was super good. oh and its called someone like you by sarah dessen. and anyways this girl, falls in love with this guy named macon. and omw, he was like the most perfect guy i could have ever dreamed up. it was like amazing, just reading all of that stuff about him, and then when i had to stop to do something or whatev, realizing that he wasnt real was like stabbing me in the heart. im serious. it sounds really pathetic and shit, but thats how i was. so then last night at like 1 am im crying about this book and whatev else pop into my head. and then i all of a sudden start shaking. and i was like oh no. i cant do that. so then i do it, and i waiting for it to stop bleeding, but still sighing in relief of pain. its really incredible. how i can go through that all the time and not even really hurt. its weird to me. well if i think about it enough. which i am right now. but now i really really really want to meet some perfect guy and have the same shit happen to me (minus my bestie being pregnant, that would be weird.). and omw i just really want to meet some guy named macon, and for him to be the perfect guy for me and for us to fall in love and ahhhhhhhh. ok im done. and i have decided that i will name my kid macon. purely because the guy in the book was like so effing perfect. and god i need to stop doing that. by that i mean falling in love with characters in books. which sounds really creeoy i know, but its totally normal. just like me. but now i continue my lonely day. i wonder when i will go driving with my mom. she said she would take me, but if i ask her about it now, shell get all bitchy about it. so i prolly will end up not going at all.{{{{{{{out}}}}}}}