One Day At A Time.
That has become a motto of sorts. And it is one of the many things that has helped me. I am truly thankful to be alive!
Yesterday I went to several stores Christmas shopping for a special someone (oooooooo *smoochy sounds*) haha! Well I was unable to find initially what I was looking for so I ordered it online. I was able to get the other part of the gift though... anyway that is another beautiful story ;]. I went to several stores, walked around in them and felt fantastic. I also went to a mechanic shop with my paretns and rolled a tire in to have it inspected. Then went to the mall (which would have been anxiety madness for me but no longer!) not only did I browse several more shops in the mall but I talked to people and just enjoyed life and felt alive! Then it was time for me to eat a meal ( I'm weight training like a machine right now) and I did have time to get home. However, I said "no, I'm going to eat out today". And not only did I walk into the food court, but I spoke with the girl at the counter and ordered and paid for my own meal! Then I went and sat in the food court and enjoyed my chicken sandwiches! This may not seem like much to others but in my world it's huge. I'm kicking my agoraphobia's ass so hard lol. It's like someone who had a fear of water, now swimming with the dolphins in the deepest oceans. One Day At A Time. My personal history is gone and does not matter anymore. I am not linked to past weaknesses or failures. They do not and will not hold me back. I am reborn, restored and renewed. And truly blessed.
I know I'm on the right track and God is my major source of strength and guidance. And I appreciate the support and kind words of my friends and family. Especially my best friend. I know logically and honestly that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to. She makes me feel like I could climb higher than Angels could fly. I am honored and most grateful to join with her in the bond we share. I am proud of who she is and how far she has come on her own right. And I'll always stand by her side. And I feel the best has yet to come.(However, I do appreciate the now, and every moment of each day.) I believe things have just begun and will flourish in an everlasting song. Love, positive energy and God's far and beyond favor, providing abundance and nourishment.
Whatever happens in life. I will handle it and learn and grow from it. I never was defeated and I never will be. I live and I AM Alive!!!
So much to be thankful for.
[ - TrAnce - ]
Yesterday I went to several stores Christmas shopping for a special someone (oooooooo *smoochy sounds*) haha! Well I was unable to find initially what I was looking for so I ordered it online. I was able to get the other part of the gift though... anyway that is another beautiful story ;]. I went to several stores, walked around in them and felt fantastic. I also went to a mechanic shop with my paretns and rolled a tire in to have it inspected. Then went to the mall (which would have been anxiety madness for me but no longer!) not only did I browse several more shops in the mall but I talked to people and just enjoyed life and felt alive! Then it was time for me to eat a meal ( I'm weight training like a machine right now) and I did have time to get home. However, I said "no, I'm going to eat out today". And not only did I walk into the food court, but I spoke with the girl at the counter and ordered and paid for my own meal! Then I went and sat in the food court and enjoyed my chicken sandwiches! This may not seem like much to others but in my world it's huge. I'm kicking my agoraphobia's ass so hard lol. It's like someone who had a fear of water, now swimming with the dolphins in the deepest oceans. One Day At A Time. My personal history is gone and does not matter anymore. I am not linked to past weaknesses or failures. They do not and will not hold me back. I am reborn, restored and renewed. And truly blessed.
I know I'm on the right track and God is my major source of strength and guidance. And I appreciate the support and kind words of my friends and family. Especially my best friend. I know logically and honestly that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to. She makes me feel like I could climb higher than Angels could fly. I am honored and most grateful to join with her in the bond we share. I am proud of who she is and how far she has come on her own right. And I'll always stand by her side. And I feel the best has yet to come.(However, I do appreciate the now, and every moment of each day.) I believe things have just begun and will flourish in an everlasting song. Love, positive energy and God's far and beyond favor, providing abundance and nourishment.
Whatever happens in life. I will handle it and learn and grow from it. I never was defeated and I never will be. I live and I AM Alive!!!
So much to be thankful for.
[ - TrAnce - ]