when will this feeling ever go away?

[soul_of_sui]

looking back... this one month was long and treacherous... i used to think i can handle almost anything... apparently not... if all things seem to just slowly deteroriating... when will someone ever stop hoping? i dunno man... but right now i am stil hoping.. hopign that one day will come... even though i noe things are almost over... but why am i still hoping? argh...

someone just kill me...

if not the feeling's killing me...