Exhausted
My Chemistry final was today. It really wasn't as a bad as I thought it would be.
That just goes to show that I worry too much.
I didn't have a final 5th period, and Dad agreed to let me leave early and go visit Jimmy, as promised. He was awake, talking to his doctors. They asked me if I was supposed to be there, and before I could say anything, Jim said, "Of course she's supposed to be here." They didn't question it, and when they left, Jim asked me if I wanted the good news or the bad news. I said good, and he smiled and told me he'd thought about me all day. I rolled my eyes and prepared for the bad news.
And it was bad.
There's a special medication given to most CML patients called Gleevec (Imatinib), which increases the life expectancy in CML patients and can even put the cancer in remission. They were going to put Jim on Gleevec, but refused to when they asked if Jim drank. Apparently, Gleevec is tough on your liver. Jim's been drinking for a long time, and even though he's just 19, they don't want to risk liver complications.
They're going to talk to him and Faith about chemo therapy tomorrow. He wants me to be there, and since I don't have school, I promised him I'd be there.
The whole time I was there, I kept yawning. Jim told me to go home and sleep, but I just can't. I haven't slept much since Thursday, when I got the phone call.
It's hard to believe how much has changed, in just 4 days.
Tonight, I'm going to see a movie with Robby. He texted me last night and asked me why I'd been so distant. I wanted to tell him in person, and I think a movie might distract me for a little while.
We're going to see Avatar. Hope I can lose myself in it.
I need a nap, and I have a boat load of laundry to do.
Ugh.
That just goes to show that I worry too much.
I didn't have a final 5th period, and Dad agreed to let me leave early and go visit Jimmy, as promised. He was awake, talking to his doctors. They asked me if I was supposed to be there, and before I could say anything, Jim said, "Of course she's supposed to be here." They didn't question it, and when they left, Jim asked me if I wanted the good news or the bad news. I said good, and he smiled and told me he'd thought about me all day. I rolled my eyes and prepared for the bad news.
And it was bad.
There's a special medication given to most CML patients called Gleevec (Imatinib), which increases the life expectancy in CML patients and can even put the cancer in remission. They were going to put Jim on Gleevec, but refused to when they asked if Jim drank. Apparently, Gleevec is tough on your liver. Jim's been drinking for a long time, and even though he's just 19, they don't want to risk liver complications.
They're going to talk to him and Faith about chemo therapy tomorrow. He wants me to be there, and since I don't have school, I promised him I'd be there.
The whole time I was there, I kept yawning. Jim told me to go home and sleep, but I just can't. I haven't slept much since Thursday, when I got the phone call.
It's hard to believe how much has changed, in just 4 days.
Tonight, I'm going to see a movie with Robby. He texted me last night and asked me why I'd been so distant. I wanted to tell him in person, and I think a movie might distract me for a little while.
We're going to see Avatar. Hope I can lose myself in it.
I need a nap, and I have a boat load of laundry to do.
Ugh.