Well the new year is going as expected. I spent a totally TIRED NYE, fagged out and lying getting mosquito bites in a park, 30 degrees still at midnight, miles from home, too tired to even lean over to give my friends a kiss on the cheek. Happy new whatsit, we mumbled at each other tiredly. Then I spent an hour on the tram getting home, but that ( Read more... )

Sigh. Christmas makes me weary. Weariness makes me cranky. Crankiness makes me bored. I have just come home from a dinner with friends where I got weary, cranky and bored. Thank god it only cost me 30 bucks ( Read more... )

Years ago I had a needle put through my side ribs during a medical procedure and all this afternoon and this evening a little muscle has been jumping and flickering right on that spot. It happens from time to time, but not usually so much. It's like a tiny little fish, shimmering right against my ribs. Jump jump jump ( Read more... )

OW. I managed to brain myself on my own freezer door tonight. There was blood. What the fuck ( Read more... )

okay, i just got an email from 'yahoo', saying i have to verify my account details or lose all my emails. i am hotly assuming this is spam, but JUST IN CASE, has anyone else got this for a yahoo email address ( Read more... )

I've been reading Iris Murdoch novels lately. She's just amazing. I read a few when I was a young bint, but don't remember much about them. Reading 'The Flight from the Enchanter' was a revelation. She's so muscular in her intelligence, she casts such a strange spell with her characters and scenarios. A hugely wise mind at work, sometimes warm, ( Read more... )

I was feeling all right today, went to the gym and had a coffee with a darling friend and it was warm and sunny and I strolled down the street feeling fairly pleased with the world and went to the bank to talk to a financial adviser person, and he was some chap who was all very hale-fellow-well-met and jokey and kind of wired and, actually, rather ( Read more... )

Would you believe that today I ended up feeling better after I went to my accountant and found out that I have to pay just about all my worldly wealth in tax, got a disturbingly shaped haircut, and a letter from a reviews editor pointing out that the review I wrote for her, of 450 words, was meant to be 650 and I had totally boobed ( Read more... )

Today I ended up miserable enough to just about chew my own kidneys. Oh fuck. I found myself in such a funk, I was starving hungry and still couldn't make myself eat anything and ended up crying over the washingup as I contemplated how fucked I am to not be able to feed myself. Plus the rest ( Read more... )

Hallo everyone. I have been in too foul a mood for WEEKS to post anything. Honestly, you wouldn't want to know me. I don't want to know me. Incredible to relate, I did not spring to LJ to vent. How noble of me. I realised that the only conversation I have to offer consists of me: whingeing; moaning; bitching; kvetching; and if the other person MAY ( Read more... )