No where left to run
So I thought maybe, you know just maybe everything would finally be ok. Bob was out the picture right? My mom could fianlly get better. And then, well what do ya know, my perfect little world comes crashing down again. Like anything is ever going to change. I quit the military because my mom needed me, because I needed her. And now I have nothing. I don't have a job, I have no money, and now the one thing that kept me together, the one thing I thought I'd always have, is gone. Bob got out of prison, and my mom decided to take him back. I told her not to. I told her I won't live with him. I told her that if she brings him back to this house that I'd go crazy, I'd get worse, and I'd end up killing myself. And you know what she tells me? It's her decision, and I can go some place else. I told her I don't have anywhere to go, that I don't want to be some bum living on someone's coutch. So you know what she thinks is going to make it better? She tells me that Shane, Andrea, and I can find a place and she'll pay the deposit. She's kicking me out of her life. My own mother. I don't know what to do anymore. I've been through so much, and I just don't think I can handle anymore. I have no where left to go. My mind is so buried in this, and my heart is so broken. I'm in pieces. I'm a wreck. I can't even breathe.