Part of your world...
Everyday spent here gets a little worse.. I feel a little more disconnected from everyone else.. It feels like I'm no longer part of my friends lives.. the world doesn't stop for me so yea time keeps going and everyone forgets a little more about me... I hope I can pick my life back up when I go home...
I hate feeling like this.. I'm so depressed.. the military has literally fucking ruined me... I don't even feel like a person anymore.. It's like I don't have a purpose.. All I do is wake up eat go to apts. and sit around... sure I'm getting paid.. but this place sucks the life out of you.. and nobody here really cares about you or your feelings.. all they wanna do is go home their families..and they get to.. but I don't.. I'm stuck here and I worry about my mom way too much she's dealing with so much shit and she shouldn't have to be alone through it all...I just wanna go home and get my life back.. I miss being me.. I miss my friends my family..and ME... I can't wear my clothes.. do my hair the way I want it.. take a shower alone.. or any of the little things I used to do.. I miss all those little things.. even more than I miss the big things... I just want to be part of my world again...
I leave in 13 days.. and I better have one hell of a welcome home.. everybody better at least call me and tell me they love me...
not that they do now... I barely hear from any of my friends.. which makes it so much worse...I kinda wish I was back in the psyhic. ward.. at least they payed attention to me and cared about my thoughts...
Yea that's right... I'm fucking depressed and wish I was dead...well not really just home.. the military sucks.. I hate it.. I hate everything it stands for... there is no Marine Corps... it's all a lie.. we're nothing but numbers and robots...controlled by the government.. little puppets pulled by strings...
I hate feeling like this.. I'm so depressed.. the military has literally fucking ruined me... I don't even feel like a person anymore.. It's like I don't have a purpose.. All I do is wake up eat go to apts. and sit around... sure I'm getting paid.. but this place sucks the life out of you.. and nobody here really cares about you or your feelings.. all they wanna do is go home their families..and they get to.. but I don't.. I'm stuck here and I worry about my mom way too much she's dealing with so much shit and she shouldn't have to be alone through it all...I just wanna go home and get my life back.. I miss being me.. I miss my friends my family..and ME... I can't wear my clothes.. do my hair the way I want it.. take a shower alone.. or any of the little things I used to do.. I miss all those little things.. even more than I miss the big things... I just want to be part of my world again...
I leave in 13 days.. and I better have one hell of a welcome home.. everybody better at least call me and tell me they love me...
not that they do now... I barely hear from any of my friends.. which makes it so much worse...I kinda wish I was back in the psyhic. ward.. at least they payed attention to me and cared about my thoughts...
Yea that's right... I'm fucking depressed and wish I was dead...well not really just home.. the military sucks.. I hate it.. I hate everything it stands for... there is no Marine Corps... it's all a lie.. we're nothing but numbers and robots...controlled by the government.. little puppets pulled by strings...