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Two things before I go to job two:
One - my body has an instant flash rage reaction when being called 'sweetheart' over the phone by someone who is male and obviously younger than sixty. I actually felt hot with rage. Isn't that odd?
Two - I don't know how soldiers do it. This is just my second week of working two jobs, and what's killing me isn't the difficulty or the lack of sleep (yet) -- what's killing me is being accountable to someone else for 12 hours a day. Just being stuck in traffic for forty minutes after getting out of work was actually relaxing because I was only accountable for myself and when I got home I had to leave my parents and fling myself on my bed for ten minutes and close my eyes -- just to settle into myself. And soldiers do this twenty-four/seven.
Maybe I'm just too conscientious?
One - my body has an instant flash rage reaction when being called 'sweetheart' over the phone by someone who is male and obviously younger than sixty. I actually felt hot with rage. Isn't that odd?
Two - I don't know how soldiers do it. This is just my second week of working two jobs, and what's killing me isn't the difficulty or the lack of sleep (yet) -- what's killing me is being accountable to someone else for 12 hours a day. Just being stuck in traffic for forty minutes after getting out of work was actually relaxing because I was only accountable for myself and when I got home I had to leave my parents and fling myself on my bed for ten minutes and close my eyes -- just to settle into myself. And soldiers do this twenty-four/seven.
Maybe I'm just too conscientious?